| i just came from salsa, i was scared shit.
i have the moves and the look (or at least the confidance in the look) but not the confidance in my game
i had no problem picking a girl for the drill part, she was a 9 in my book.
i felt i gave her mixed signals, one moment shy the other one in control (coudn't help it), one moment sttracted to her and the other distint (part of it was intentially). as we where rehearsing with the instructor i prolongned some of the times the moment we where suppose to stop touching, i even touched her back when i was not suppose to to test her reaction, after couple of minutes she seemed attracted to me, when i had the moments of confidance and looked into her eyes i felt like i can kiss her and she will go with it but everytime i think about it while i am there i get contious about myself and look down in shyness and try to build my confidance all over again!
what i learned was that i should never look like i am sorry for my response, in my book it should always look like i accept my self as i am.
in the process i felt attraction was off again (to me and to her) but i kept the tizzing again, told her to come to where i am, told her how i want the things to be done and she looked again like she was attracted. at the end of the drill i was scared shit, i was suppose to stay and practice but i couldn't. she asked me for my name the minute we stoped the drill, it was kind of obvious she wanted to show her intrest.
i could easily get her number and if i would have been a little better player i could f-closed (i feel it in my bones) but i am scared shit. i now lost the attraction and i know that in order to build it again i need to do an extra the second time i go there, next time i need to come to her before the drill and talk to her as a freind so she will feel comftable and let her self be attracted to me again. but i can't talk, i fucking go blank my body go tense, its like two opposite feelings i can't quite control
don't know what to do...
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