| i am currently macking chicks on facebook. half the time it seems that they mack me. one basically threw the pussy at me. im going to give you guys a run down of every girl from the past month.
1. cassy
i opened up with cassy by messaging her with very vague one to six word sentences trying to get to know her. you could tell very quickly she was interested by her emojis and asking why i wanted to know her and asking me "are you sure just friends?" i said "we'll see" got her number, which she adamantly told me to text soon and didnt message her back. she sent me a message after five minutes like "okay fine dont reply or anything". i texted her the next day we texted for a bit back and forth for a while, and planned a movie date, which i didnt even wanna do because movie dates suck as first dates. then i tryed to call her but she was at her friends and asked me to still text, but i was like "no i'll call you later" and she got pissed. i ended up in the ER later that day and missed twenty texts and missed the date. i called her once i got back and told her why i was in the ER and everything and we had a somewhat deep conversation. she started talking about sex and stuff and how netflix and chill is awesome. and how she was naked talking to me. the next day i missed a few of her texts and she was pissed. anyway she called once and i talked dirty a bit. the next day she was texting me all types of dirty sexy shit. but she only did once. i tryed to text her more but she wouldnt answer any of my texts, i just wanted to converse with her and figure out when the fuck we were hanging out. anyway this went on for like one more day then i called her up and was like "im done" and hung up. she called me back and i hung up again then called me back and i said why i didnt like this shit and how i was trying to text her and do better and how i didnt want her anymore. then i realized i did and said that i was sorry and stuff and i wanted her back and stuff but she was like no, your being childish. which i was. and thats how that went down
2.ally
ally was another random i added on facebook. quickly after i added her she messaged me saying "do i know you" i said "no i dont think so" anyway i asked her a few questions and she gave me her snapchat. i snapchatted her once to confirm i got the right one. i waited a week. she snapchatted me. and we talked. she gave me her number. we texted for a bit and i texted her the next day but she was in a rehab facility for the week and they took her phone away. i waited 4 days and texted her again. i snapped her for a bit but my friend was over so i missed a few snaps. on saturday we were supposed to hang out but we didn't all day. she sent me a text later saying that i should come to the mall and bring a friend. i couldnt because i was at my grandparents hanging out with my little sister. a day passed and we texted and snapped back and forth. she it was okay. she asked if i wanted to go see a movie, but i couldnt because i had to go to a thanksgiving thing. she started to text me but once again i missed a bunch of texts and stuff. i said i would stay awake all night with her and talk but i texted once or twice but missed one for an hour. she said she would call me at 1 but then 1 came and she wouldnt call me because she said she was too hyper. i got a little weird and was like "alright fine, textings cool." i asked one open ended question and said what i was doing. then i said "i dont care if your hyper i wanna call you" or something along those lines. she never texted back and its 2:52 now. thats how thats going so far.
3. kyla
kyla is so fucking hot. all in one package for me. big breasts, big ass, and a perfect sexy potbelly and a slightly hoeish profile picture that turned me on the moment i saw it. shes 2 years older than me. i dont know her outside of facebook shes a random. but anyway i messaged her a month ago and she didnt reply. right after i got allys number and started planning when to hang out, she messaged me again right away saying that we should chill sometime, making small talk and asking if i was single. i took fucking fifteen minutes to answer her texts cause i had other shit going on. but still she messaged me the next day and asked if i wanted to get drunk with her, but i couldnt because i had to go to a thanksgiving thing. now we are supposed to hang out wednesday at 4 and eat but i think she expects me to trick out on the meal because she asked if i had money for the food and i said i should. she gave me her number. she messaged like 3 hours ago but i didnt respond and i dont care i i gotta trick out. im not into saving these hoes. not that shes a hoe or whatever i really dont care i just wanna be great friends and fuck her. i recognize shes really sidechick material. but i dont wanna spend sixty bucks on moxies or some shit to woo her. i might as well just pay her 200 and say "fuck me for the hour". that shits ridiculous. any way id love to get drunk or high with her. preferably drunk. see i think too much over this shit.
THINGS I RECOGNIZED FROM THESE EXPERIENCES
>most girls feel unwanted if you dont text back right away
>i spend too much time with friends and family. i've literally spent every day of this past week with my friend elijah. i couldve spent that time meeting new friends or going to the gym so i have more friends higher social value confidence and influence, or actually been able to text these girls because i was focused.
> i dont know how to say no and try to please people too much.
> i am extremely disorganized ( i have bad ad/hd so i already knew this) and awful at planning shit
> i dont think about what i text too much
> i need to have more faith in myself and god because god gives me faith in myself to do whatever the fuck i want to do regardless of what a book written by men says, and clean myself up more
> i waste too much time sitting in my room daydreaming, reading stupid top 10 lists, checking and updating my facebook, and windowshopping for designer brands and luxury cars i cant even come close to affording because i don't have a job and have to worry about money every time i come close to getting a date
THINGS I HAVE TO DO
back off from my circle of friends for a bit and make more friends
get a job
go to the gym
get better sleep
pass in school better
start rapping more and reading
buy more fly shit to make myself that pretty motherfucker
stop smoking
maybe try approaching girls in real life
text back better
learn to socialize better and make deeper more meaningful and more impactful conversation
What do you guys think? what would you recommend? whats the best way to seal a date possibly get in a relationship? what am i doing wrong, what am i doing right, and what am i overthinking or underthinking?
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