Alright, mostly writing this out to help me sort my thoughts. The story starts two weekends past.


I was chilling at my friend L's house with a couple of my friends - B, C, D, Cay, and N. We were waiting on my friend DJ to show up so I could procure the alcohol for that night's party. He shows up in the car with R, who's the main girl of the story. Me and R make some small talk, DJ gets me the vodka L was paying for, and they drop me back off at L's house. As I get out of the car, R tells me she's going to drop by my house tonight to drink with me. I had known R for about a year and a half, but this was the first time we had really hung out one on one.

B, C, D, Cay, N, L and I go to my house to start the party and I smoked a few blunts but stayed away from the alcohol. Sometime around 12:30 R shows up with her sister and DJ, and I go outside to take some shots of tequila with them. While I was in the car R was pretty much all over me, but I waited a bit before making a move considering how drunk we both were. The night goes well, I chill with them for a good 3 hours until I go inside to get my sober friend to drive them home.

The next night she shows up again, we hang out the same as the other night until everybody at my house besides us up and leaves to go get a wrap and smoke a blunt, leaving me and her alone together laying on the couch for a good half an hour. We kiss about ten minutes in, fluff talk a bit, and DJ comes back in to tell her that they're leaving. R decides to spend the night with me. Sadly, it was her time of the month and we ended up just making out for a good two and a half hours, with me turning down a handjob 'cause... handjobs suck. We wake up around 9 o'clock, she goes home, cut to Monday.

During the week we ended up playing phone tag a bit because my cellphone was stolen at a party awhile back, and I end up not chilling with her till Friday.

Friday is a nightmare and I have no idea how I got back from it, but god damnit I did it. There were close to 30 people in my house when she shows up, and it was impossible for us to get passed all the noise and people so we end up smoking and she leaves. A half an hour later some dumbasses from my neighborhood start trouble with a friend of mine in the street, said friend got jumped by about 4 people and the cops were called. 7 cops outside of my house were knocking on the door and looking through the window at all the alcohol on my coffee table, and by God's grace alone I didn't get arrested that night.

I was stuck in my house all night saturday, but she called me on Sunday to invite me to a movie. We see the movie, head back to R's house and I do a shot with DJ. We end up heading to this dude J's house, and from the moment we got picked up to head there we were cuddling and kissing pretty much every ten minutes, with her always running to sit by me every time I changed spots, kissing on my neck whenever I went outside to get a quick cigarette, and pretty much shooting me every single IOI in the book. I end up spending the night at her house, with the two of us messing around on the couch.

By this point, after reading the wall of text I've written up you're probably wondering "What in the hell is the problem here?", and the problem is that we don't ever ever ever talk. It's awkward as hell when we do. We barely know eachother and there's really nothing to discuss other than "What did we do last night? Wait, what did I do last night? WHAT DID YOU DO TO ME LAST NIGHT!?! "

We met up again today at C's house and we both just kinda acted like nothing ever happened, couldn't find anything to talk about, and as time passed I just got frustrated as hell and left. It fucking sucks because out of a dozen girls I've dicked around with in the past few months, this is the only girl I'd really want to date. I'm guessing I really didn't build enough comfort with her before we started screwing around, and I don't know how to backtrack to make it so we're not awkward as hell when the morning rolls around. Considering the last time we saw eachother didn't go so well... I resisted the urge to call and settle things and I figure if she takes the initiative, we're good to go, if not it wasn't meant to be.

It's 1 in the morning and I'm ranting, so tell me what you think my options are. I'm too involved to think clearly SPAM : /.

I promise, I don't want to come across as a dick, but you can't find anything to talk about with a hot chick who is into you???

Do you read books? Do you watch movies? Do you have any opinions about anything going on in the world?

Does she do any of these things? Ask her questions about her family, her dog, her studies, her favorite things.

Seriously. The chick wants to kiss you and sit next to you and hang out with you and you still think there's a problem? I just laughed out loud.

The problem is that whenever we hang out and it isn't dark outside, we both pretty much completely ignore eachother. I'm an optimistic person, so It's pretty hard to convey negatives in my writing, 'cause it just gets me thinking to all the good parts. Summed up in a nutshell; when we aren't making out we're both bored. When it's me, her, and her friends, there's at least two orbiters constantly talking to her about things in her life that I know jack about. I can't jump in the conversation when I don't know anything about it man.

And no, you didn't come off as a dick, you gave me a kick in the ass that I probably needed.