| Hello guys!
Its been a while since I have posted, but there is this one thing I would like to share with you, its called pornography, and how it can affect you, and your relationship.
Ive been with my GF for 11 months now, and I had struggled with sort of an "addiction" to pornography so to speak, I watched porn a lot, and masturbated, sometimes up to 3 times a day, or more...
I never thought it would affect me, until I first had sex with my GF, which was 3 months into the relationship.
I couldn't finish, I had masturbated 2 times that day in the afternoon, and when we had sex I just couldnt finish.
I didnt knew what caused it at the time.
The days went by and our sex life started getting more kinky and passionate, but I still continued to watch porn. We would have sex, and when I got home I would masturbate to porn, because I was unable to cum when having sex with her. She never complaider, or I dont know if she noticed.
The first time I came with her, wasnt even when having sex.
One day after school we came to my house and she gave me a handjob and I came, with a lot of "euphoria" ... this was when I realized what the problem had been. My addiction to masturbating to pornography.
I stopped it, and from now on I could cum insider her no problem, sometimes I would feel the orgasm build within the starting minutes, but I would held it.
And from here on everything changed.
Why do I say it can affect a relationship?? ... well, on my failed attempts to cum inside my girlfriend or at least finish when I was having sex with her, lead me to start to see other women, and wanting to fuck them, I thought I wasnt being satisfied with my GF so I wanted another girl, and I actually started to flirt with some, and they were so into it, that asked me to their places for dinner. I turned down a few invitations because I knew I would have sex with them, and I didn't wanted to cheat.
I was strong with temptation.
I think pornography makes us see sex in a different way.
We see guys apparently picking up a random girl and fucking her without knowing her name... Yes those things happen in real life, but the more you see it the more you tend to believe that it is that way.
You see things youd like to do, like threesomes, orgies etc.. and it all disturbs our perception of what reality is... you get to a point where you WANT that which happens in porn, and you won't get it ... so you start looking somewhere else, and the affection with your GF is being affected.
I just wanted to let you all know about this, since it was a problem for me at the beginning, I could say I was a porn addict, and even got to like masturbation more than sex. I stopped the porn, and the masturbation and my sex life got healthier.
I am more eager to make love to my girl than I was before, just waiting for it to end so I can go home and masturbate. I enjoy kissing every inch of her body now and she does too.
I recovered from this addiction, because IT IS and addiction and it will affect you sooner or later if you have this problem.
I wanted to share it with you all.... now I feel like Anonymous Alcoholics... lol..
Thank you.
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