Hey everyone,
It's been awhile since I been here and posted.
Hope I don't violate the posting rules. If I do apologies in advance.
Well to start I just wanted to share my observations of my five year relationship with my girlfriend. She's an HB8 BBW flirty,fun, full of life.
She's like my female doppelganger in a sense.
I'm 41. She's 42 going on 14. I'm divorced 2 kids. She's divorced no kids.
First four years were great. Last year has been hell and I'm so glad it's a new year.
The last year has come to a crescendo of problems created by mostly outside influences. My ex wife and kids have treated us both like garbage in and out of courts. My GF is done and has pretty much given up on us because of it.
Problem is we share a house together where I have visitation with my kids.
I can't really afford to move due to child support and bills. Feel like I'm stuck.
Anyhow I saw a text to her friend badmouthing me and my kids and how unhappy she was. Thank god I never married her :/
I broke it off there and then. She split for two nights and said she was going to her parent's. Tried talking to her but "she needed her space". LOL
She came back around on NY's but she was cold and distant.
I upped my status at the bar by buying drinks and chatting with mostly other women. It worked as I figured it would.
She then stated she wanted us to work out and to try harder to mend our broken relationship. I agreed.
Four days later she wakes me up yelling,name calling,stomping around like a child and accusing me of cheating on her! Needless to say we're over again.
As she put it I never asked her back out. I said fine let's keep it like that.
She's broken sacred ground rules and there has to be consequences!
Our future looks bleak and I don't know what I'm gonna do.
I think I know what I have to do and would like some advice.
I think I need:
1. Out of this relationship.
2. My own place to visit with my kids.
3. Stay single as long as possible. Just date around.
4. Hit the lottery to make it all happen.
Also I have a feeling she didn't stay at her parent's house.
Do you think she stayed and cheated with someone else?
Sex has been great but infrequent the last year and we haven't had sex since we broke up few days before Christmas.
The reason I say this is she's been very secretive the last few weeks between where she was or going, who she was with, cell phone, etc.
I'm wondering if she found someone else and is trying to sabotage our relationship so she can be free of my baggage. You think?
Either way it's all good to me cause it's a big sea and I'm a good fisherman!
CHAT
