| I know we're all sick of ex gf problems but her's one more for the road. I'm 17 and a senior in high school. I got into my first relationship with this girl I met on the boardwalk. At the time, I was totally unassertive and a complete beta. As it stands, I'm a PUA in training and making decent headway, but I digress. I come up to her and tell her my name. She'd seen me a couple times before that, but no serious dialogue, save for some quirky jokes. This girl has a NOTORIOUS relationship for being a slut. Everybody thinks this and she herself hates this and doesn't like being called a slut, even though she herself fits her own description of a slut, being a girl who fucks guys who she has no feelings for. I come up to her and tell her my name, and she just grabs me to go make out with her and go skinny dipping. I hit her up a couple days later and I try to fuck her but she's obviously against the idea and doesn't wanna be so easy. She then invites me to her house to fuck a few days from then (how ironic.) I go there but I can't get it up because of anxiety and, long story short, we started going out from there. Shit was pretty cool, but I didn't fuck her once during our first relationship because opportunities kept drying up (and I know I should've been more assertive about the sex, but I was kinda content at the time. She, on the other hand, was hornier than a rhino.) She blew me a couple times but never let me finish despite my pleading (again, very beta I know.) She had a constant habit of not wanting to fulfill my sexual desires for some reason, probably trying the whole carrot on a stick routine. Since going out with this girl, I've learned from most of my mistakes and the experience has formed me into a more confident, albeit weary man. I don't take shit from any girls. However, if there's anything in this post that you guys may want to point out and correct in order to further my game, be my guest. We take acid together (both our first times) and she freaks out, but I calm her down, and she calls me her hero. I go to italy for a couple weeks and when I come back, she's excited at first, but school starts and I start acting a lot more stressed, and she admits that I'm not "shining" as much as I did when we were tripping together. After a bunch of nonsense, I tell her we need a break, writing her PARAGRAPHS about how i felt, while she wrote mere sentences. (Again, beta, I know. Hot, slutty girl for his first relationship will do that to a guy I guess.) She gets drunk on the first day of our break, and tells me she hooked up with a guy. I break it off, naturally, but I'm attached, so we stay friends, but we all know how that song and dance goes. I don't kiss her right away because I genuinely want to be just friends, but she asks me if she can kiss me and I say yes. She's into guys she can't get I suppose. Big shock, I know. She keeps hanging out with the guy she cheated on me with and even brought him to my jiu jitsu dojo when she asked if she could watch me train. After enough hypocritical bull shit, she got him to leave. She had blown him right before this, but when she was about to he said "I don't let girls I love blow me." She told me this a while later. She comes to me after watching me train and asks me if I love her and if I would fuck a girl at her birthday party which she invited me to and asked me to wear a pink shit and a silver tie ot match her because she wanted me to "be hers." Early on, she said she would "keep me" and that "she wears the pants." Back then, I figured it was just playful banter but now I'm not so sure. Anyway, I reach my boiling point and act like a complete jerk to her but it backfires and she bans me from the party. I totally beta out and ask her what I did wrong, but she's pissed and tells me to get out of her life and that I was the worst mistake she'd ever made. Dumb bitch. Anyway, I go NC and eventually contact is reestablished after like 2 months. I forget who initiated contact, but basically we both admitted to still having feelings. She said that she felt absolutely nothing to the kid she cheated on me with and, after having sex with him, just left after he asked to be "more than fuck buddies." We started hanging out and I asked her to be my girlfriend after like a week. I picked her over another girl I was seeing, who while connected with me intellectually was a prude, had an early curfew, pretty much your run of the mill boring kinder girl. I'm not sure if it was the best course of action, but that's a small enough detail. We fuck on New Years and and she is thrilled. She starts writing me a few paragraphs about how amazing it was and how much she loved me. Looking back at it now, I think she was just glad I finally verified her through sex. Even apart, she reminded me of how pissed she was we never had sex. A couple days after this, I break up with her because I have deep trust issues. Every bf she ever had, she cheated on, except for one guy she was with for a few months I believe, who, according to my friend who knows the guy well, treated her like shit, got head from her every day, which she no longer likes to do apparently, and then cheated on her with 5 girls in 1 week. She saw him before we got back together at a party and broke down and asked me to come outside. SHe then cried in my arms, kinda like an emotional tampon. I know she cares about me, because she gets freaked out whenever I'm cold, and would always love to feed me, but she has deep, emotional, problems. From here, she's an Emotionally manipulative woman who only responds to push pull techniques with a considerable emphasis on push, and minimal pull. She has since gone back to the other kid whom she cheated on me with. She stopped seeing him recently, and got with some other dude but I can tell it's not real. She's just using them like band-aids. Poor saps. She herself said "I just want someone to cuddle with. I'd rather not be alone." At this point, my main goal is to find a way to keep fucking her while looking for other pussy. I can tell it'll never work as a relationship. She's too insane. But, as a warm blooded teenage male, I'd like to get my willy wet. If you guys want me to add more specifics, or any more info in general, lemme know. Also, this post may be biased in a way, although I've tried to avoid this, but should anyone respond to this, I might change around any info I've provided in order to be more accurate. I would just like some suggestions from you gentlemen as to what you think would be the best course of action, given the info I've just provided. What should I do from here, and how can I better control my emotions and thoughts concerning this girl, be it thinking about her or hoping she'll initiate contact, etc?
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