Hey guys,
This month marks my one year in game. I have grown and changed so much, though I'm still not the guy who's in full control of my dating life. There are times that I see a beautiful girl and didn't approach her because of excuses that I made inside my head. Yet I learned fast, if only I practiced more just like all of you guys do, I'd become much much better.
I met about 15 girls (I know that's very few) for the last 1 year. Some of them are the ones that I won't even believe I could attract. But after all of those, I still liked the very first girl I approached. The first girl I approached with AFC Adam's simple method.
Since the time I met that girl, I met more and more girls, and I keep changing. My game got better, I became better at socializing, but still this one girl is the one that suits me the best... YET. This girl will change her character and behavior for me, yet she play games and won't make it easier for me. She likes me, but she wants to hold her reputation. Something common in girls.
I started to write down my standards in my cellphone notes last week and I recognized that about 70% of these qualities are already inside this girl. Things that I don't find in other 14 girls. I know I could meet somebody who's cooler, but still things with this girl is different. We shared sooo many things in common, that I also can't find in other 14 girls. Severe one-itis, eh?
If only we can meet up for once more time, I know she'd be mine. We only hung out once (and that's after 6 months of persistence and logistics dealing!). She's moody but in a very tolerable level, which I actually found out in the community, is common.
Now this girl is very closed about her private life e.g guys she like and she only shares it with her sisters, though they're very far away, so her friends can't help me much either, but tell me that there are big chance that she loves me.
But,she shared all private things that she doesn't share even with her closest friends. She even asked me to build her confidence. Now you guys will think that these will lead to LJBF speech, which I also think that there's big chance of it too, but I realized it's like one of the characteristics in breakthrough comfort that Sinn had developed.
Now, our relationship is about long distance relationship, because she's far away in another province in my country. 4 days earlier, I added her friend in Facebook, and we had a great chat, and jokingly told her that my girls should be more confident in the front of a man.
Apparently, I made a very big mistake that "being awkward in the front of a man" is a very big insecurity that she has, and she only shares with very few people, including me, that even her closest friend doesn't know. And bad thing is that, I made it into a joke!! I can imagine how she feels though.
So last night she asked me in MSN and I know she's upset about this, so I told her "hey, let's talk about this later, when you feel calmer, OK? I know that I made a mistake. Bye ". I know it's useless to apologize, because in that time, her head is hot and wouldn't be able to see things clearly.
Points to note: sensitive is her nature.
Am I doing the right thing,guys?
Thanks a lot guys
Best pal,
Steven
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