| In the beggining:
Ok, so, long story, from meeting this girl a few years ago, to her dating me, me having no game and fucking it up, losing her to my friend, he takes her virginity, she is his bitch, he fucks the shit out of her in everyway possible everyWHERE possible. My depression, sadness, improval, discover community, began learning, improved, still not good enough game, two years later her and him break up, she loves me treats me great, me insecure, dont have a DAMN idea of how to be a bf, lotta shit, fuck her, etc. etc. FIGHTS, she likes my friend, I love her still, she doesnt like him anymore it was just to make me be more assertive etc. etc., she makes me a WHOLE BOOK of her feelings how much she loves me, i feel mad love for her, make her cry sometimes because of being insecure, onetis onetis blah blah blah.
Now I am here. She dumps me. I feel....ok. I started reading eckhart tolle, I have read FIVE pages, and I am already stupified. I feel so confused. its like nothing Ive ever read before. NOTHING. I really should begin my summer reading(school starts in a few weeks...I will have to see her date friends and shit...everyday...)
Onetis Rant:
OHHH I LOVE HER SO MUCH. SHE IS SO PERFECT. SO BEAUTIFUL. UGHH. She loved me. She truly loved me. I acted like an asss so i fucked it up. I am so fucking stupid. She is done with me. FUCK. No, please please no. I dont want this. please take me back,. Im sorry. You did EVERYTHING I asked, whenever i asked, you were beautiful, loving, hispanic(lol), got along with my friends, liked the same shit i liked, was someone i could chill with, that LOVED ME. My love. Why, why why why.
onetis rant over.
Ok, so from a rational standpoint. I know what I need to do.
Get New Clothes,
Get my game TIGHT
Start Approaching Again.
Surround myself with new interestin people.
Focus on my interests and develop them.
Get girls.
Become more alpha, better conversationalist, more comfortable talking to people.
Start taking care of my hair
Network more again.
Learn to be funnier, ive always wanted tobe funnier.
Start Working out more(soccer seasons coming back up)
(Any help or tips you got on ANY of the above, or anything to add state it.)
Now, Its over. No point in bitching about it anymore. That little rant was my way of letting it out. Cool. Now. I havent really practiced game organized enough, its been jumled so i havent improved much.
So, I decided to get serious, and start posting a journal, taking videos and stuff of approaches, and posting pictures of myself and stuff for critic. I was originally scared someone i knew would see it and be like WTF. Then, i realized. I dont give a shit because im here trying to improve myself. Thats a good thing!
The kind of style I want mix:
-Shock and Awe/GunWitch Method
-Juggler
-RSD( I love everything theyve ever made)
Thats for the frame work and the whole basis of my style.
Use routines from LoveSystems Routine Manual + The Cube + Garden Routines
Shit I suck at:
-Conversational Skills. How do I improve? Just walk up to random people and say hi and start talking?
-Story Telling, people are always waiting for a punchline, and I can never give em one thats good adn they end up staring at me like AND...... and i go,....and thats it.
- Talking dirty to girls and getting them into a sexual frame, is it just i need to project a sexual frame and image?
-etc. etc. etc.
Then, the whole problem that when school starts and she starts sucking and fucking other guys like no tommorow, what the hell am i supposed to do. How am I supposed to get over her.
Thanks for listening.
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