HEY GUYS, FIRST OF ALL, APOLOGIES IF THIS POST DOESNT BELONG TO THIS SECTION BUT I DIDNT KNOW WHERE ELSE TO POST THIS... ( caps off )
Ah... ok im gonna need your most sincere advice on this one, and please, read Tru !!
This are like this. About 2 years ago i met this HB9 ( who were gonna call HBSANDY) in a chat room tru the net...
I used to have this cocky pic displaying my ripped abs ( which i had by that time ) and all my body, really sexy shit... so anyways.. we chatted for about an hour, then we got on MSN, chatted for another hour or so.
She was kinda more into looking at peoples faces, she asked for a pic of my face, i showed her, i saw some of her pics, and we kinda hit it off and had a nice chat....
I was more flirty with her at the beggining, then she told me she had a BF and they kinda never saw eachother due the relationship was kinda long distance.... etc etc, and i still tried to act a bit flirty, but it never seemd to affect the way she chatted with me, so i kept it light, funny and spontaneous. ( notce that by that time I was an AFC; but i have always had nice verbal skills, ive always been talkative and by 2007 i played in a band so my way of relating to people had improved a little bit; i was still aFC though.)
She was from a different city than me, hers was like hundreds of miles away.. would have been a 24 hr road trip just to see her, so we never said anything about meeting eachother... although one time
ME: blah blah fluff talk about being from different cities
HBSANDY: yeah i know, uhm by the way, would you ever come to visit me?
ME: yeah sure, if you invite me maybe i will sometime, why u ask?
HBSANDY: oh never mind, just wondering.....
ME: ok ... blah blah....
I guess she was just curious about us ever meeting each other ( thinking that maybe she only liked the idea because of the pic of my ripped abs and that shit..)..but anyways
As time passed by i started to treat her just like a friend, an internet buddy to whom i shared many stories, experiences, good and sad moments, etc etc... she also told me about her life too, many things, many, always trying to be there for each other, as support ( i guess i didnt know how to turn an attraction switch in that case )
We talked much tru 2007, then there was a time where she would go online and wouldnt answer my messages, or reply to my emails, even thouh she was online she wouldnt even say hi ( she was in college and i could haev assumed that it was only because she was so bussy, but lets face it.. no time to even say HELLO??... )
So i stopped talking to her online, sending her emails, giving her comments on hi5 and that stuff, and eventually erased her off my msn buddy list.
About 4 months passed and then i rememberd her alot and decided to add her again to see whats up. The moment i added her, and she got online she greeted me energically, like...
HB SANDY: hey bassopens ... wow.. how are ya !! long time no see.. blah blah how you doing... i thought you had erased me
or something like that, i was getting sad... blah blah ( her reaction kinda surprised me )....
ME: yeah i know, long time... and I didnt erase you at all.. no way really.. i was just really bussy by then blah blah...
and we kinda started talking alot tru msn and shit....
She told me she had broken upwith her BF, told me some sad experiences, i tried to advice her, make her feel good... i acted like a good friend should.
Even tough i liked her a lot, being a HB9 and all, i stopped flirting with her, just treating her friendly and she did the same... always friendly... i was FRIENDZONED... and I didnt mind actualy since we were so far away from each other there was no difference.
She said a couple of times that she was going to visit her relatives over to Mexico city, (which is a 3 hour drive ffrom my city..) and that it would be cool if we could meet over there. We never set a date or anything since i was kinda afraid of meeting some 1 i only knew from the internet, and i didnt have much time/money either so i passed the chance ( that was mid 2008 )...
Later that year we said kinda as a wild dream that thetwo of us were going to go to europe and stay at hostels and go touring with just a backpack and all that shit..
we never did it, but we used to have those rapport building moments and roleplay chit chat...
we liked each other as friends you know, and i really never had any intentions with her ( i dont have )....
Now, down to business. We chatted a few days ago, i mentioned something about going to mexico and she said..
HBSANDY: yeah... in fact im going to meet my family over there, lets meet this summer
ME: uhm well yeah in fact i can have may time off work during those days.... well dunno about making it to mexico city..
HBSANDY: come on, lets meet, PLEASE.
ME:uhmm i dont know, maybe influenza will turn me zombie dontya think?
HBSANDY: oh you dummie.. COME ON, please... lets meet
..
ME: uhmm let me think.....uh, ok lets meet,
HBSANDY: u sure?? will you be there this time?.extra sure?? im arriving june xx
ME: yeah i give you my word.. ill be there by june xx...
HBSANDY: yeyy !!.. thats cool...
then we kinda talked about something else .. a few more lines.. she doesnt answer... 3 more minutes.
then she goes BUSY status on msn and doesnt answer anymore.
we talkd today.. we set things up, everythings going good for us to meet..
BUT MY PROBLEM IS.... SOME TIMES WHEN WE CHAT, SHE KINDA GOES IDLE STATUS..... AND DOESNT ANSWER MY MESAGGES, SOMETIMES I DONT KNOW IF IM BORING TO HER, OR WHAT, SINCE FROM THE START I NEVER PLAYED ANY GAMES OR ROUTINES WITH HER, JUST PLAIN FRIENDLY AFC GUY....
Other times she doesnt even say hello.... i mean, we dont chat as much as we used to, or at least on a regular basis.... not even once a week...
She always has a BF, a different one, shes not slutty at all, but she kinda likes being around men, and enjoys having long term relationships, so i could assume that shes busy most of the time talking to her BF, or thinking of him, or just doing some college stuff.... well IDK.... i like her, i know she likes me as friend. but... since the invitation to meet... ive started feeling really nervous, dont know why...
I guess its the aproach anxiety over the net, the fear that she might not like me in person, or that she might find me boring, or that we dont "click" ( although those are negative,false assumptions, they still hang over my head )..... but i dont know why i have them...
Another thing thats going tru my head, is ... what if i like her a lot in person and I start feeling somehting for her?????..... but she doesnt??.... what if I dont have feelings for her, but i feel like F closing her, but since she met me kinda as an easy going nice guy, harmless, it would be pretty weird for her if i started to hit on her... and what if those combine, what if she doesntlike me and i want something to happen?.......
Ok its just my nervousnes... right now I am aware that all of those WHAT IF, are just pre asumptions of things that cant happen, or at least are not likely to do so.
But what would you suggest??.... should I go over and hit on her hard??? If i feel something deeper for her, should I surrender to my feelings even if she doesnt feel that for me???:.. or should I try my hardest to NOT feel anything for her and just hang out and come back home clean 0.
Right now i dont have feelings for her, i just like her looks and shes a very cool person, i like her a lot as a person. but If i go over there and something inside me changes.... what should I do?... turn AFC and follow my heart?... continue the friendship and not do anything at all?..... or just try to F her??........
Maybe its nothing really... but its actually the first time that i actually meet a girl that ive known for 2 years now, only tru msn...
please help guys, Id like to know your opinion, should i run game on her??... just hang out as friends even if i start feeling something for her?.....
Thanks in advance...
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