| Mannn I've got myself into a mess. I hooked up with this chick I've known for a few years, we flirted every once and awhile but never really took off till now. She was in her relationship, and I was always with whoever I was with. Well we start talking on Facebook come to find out we both live like 5 minutes from each other, we both moved from our original town. We Hung out the next night watched a movie bullshitted and realized we had a ton of shit in common, then made out. Things went perfectly. The next night we hang out and she kept telling me how she hates to make the first move, take things further and we end up having sex on my couch. Well throughout all this we continue to get closer and closer, she points out certain things about us, "we fit perfectly together, things are going fast, its weird but I like it" well we continue to grow and she points out fate and how its weird we kept passing by eachother, and now we can finish each others sentences just because we think so much alike. Then she flakes... Her excuse was things were moving too fast.
A couple days later we hang out to talk, I give a ton of distance, she asks "how do you like this?" I look at her and say mm, then just switch the topic. She said she couldn't do it and cuddled up to me. We ended up back together she told me she missed me she was just scared.
Things go well for about a week and it happens again after a fight, the next day she sends a long ass message apologizing and living up to her mistake as she put it and hoped we could talk, we met up thst night, had my defense even higher but we got back together again a couple days later. We party one night and she starts crying over how she hurt me, she's here to stay and she's sorry. We move on from that start bullshitting about other shit and she asks out of no where what would you do if... I was like here we go... What would u do if... I proposed to you on our anniversary? "That'd be a long f'n engagement" Haha no were getting married on my time, I wanna walk on water when we, I mean I do..
A red flag should've went off but I actually dug this girl, I have for awhile, her last relationship was abusive, and I'm not physical, I have no respect for that, but generally she's a loyal girl, I liked that and the connection we actually had.
Well about 3 weeks after we get back together were moving too fast again and she backs off, i got tired of it and asked for my key back (long story) she told me shed give it back to me the next day. The next day rolls by nothing, I hit her up, shes at work, I wait till she gets off, shes with her step dad and neices fishing but i can get it from her mom, I said no I gave it to you I expect to get it from you what happened to calling me after work? Blah blah blah. Well then she tells me I can get it from either her mom or dad tomorrow. And havent heard shit from her since. That was a week ago. I actually feel I failed because it went from her eating out of my hand, throwing all these fantasies at me to nothing. I'm just lost on the whole ordeal.
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