Hey Nation,

First of all I love this shit just like all of you and I appreciate whoever takes the time to read and give me their opinion. A little about me; I played competitive sports throughout my life which naturally developed my identity to be Alpha and like taking charge. I have always been surrounded by women and never have felt nervous being myself. About 14 months ago I had my heart ripped out after 8 years of being with something and it was the first time in my life I felt vulnurable.....so boohyah I show up and dive deep into all RSD and any PUA related material. I read atlast 20 books and watched countless hours of pickup and overall it just gave me something to do in order to get over one-itis. Since then I went on a rampage and smashed a ton of women, from dirtballs to 10's and I am pretty happy with where I am at now. I still am undecided on whether or not I want to be in a relationship or not. I lean on the side of yes because I enjoy being with someone and doing nice things and having fun but then I also hate the idea of meeting a girls family and then buying gifts etc. I like to have my freedom and have fun when I want to with the boys.....I go back and forth to be honest.

A quick note before reading my story/question, I know alot of the things I do with women arent PUA perfect but too be honest I am who I am and it works. When I want to do something I do it and I dont look at a handbook to plan my next set of routines lol.

Anyways now back to my question as I have never felt like this or been in this spot. About 4 weeks ago I was ripping around on the app Bumble and start talking to a girl. Have done this a number of times with other random girls. Usually I bang the girl and said cya later....This time I tell her to meet me at a time near me so we do. we hang out for hours and I realize she has dated for 3 years and cheated on in the past. She tells me things she says she never does and we get talking about personal things. She tells me that she doesnt enjoy her career anymore and she had planned on moving to Europe to figure things out and potentially spark a new interest in her career. I jokingly say well not anymore, you met me! she also explains how she is going to Europe for 2.5 weeks(where she currently is ) too see how it would feel and if she would like moving away after she gets back home. We eep talking late into the night, I kiss her for a bit then we say bye. She says when are you free and I said I will let her know.

A day goes by and I text her saying i'm free tonight lets meet up and she agrees. I tell her to come over and she starts telling me that she really wants too but just wants to be honest first and let me know that she doesnt want to put any pressure on whatever is being developed between and make things stressed out before she goes to europe for 2.5 weeks. I agree half laughing being like score DTF........but I actually say okay that sounds good. What do you mean when you say you want to have to pressure though and just be friends. I say I think we should just have fun with no labels and she agrees saying yah I am up for that. So she comes over and we bone. Next morning I expect her to leave but she says we should et breakfast somehwere. So I agree as I do think this girl is pretty cool.

We say goodbye and I dont expect to see her again until after her trip but then we keep texting, like fucking people dating. All day and night and then she calls me 2 nights in a row and we talk for hours. Then we hang out and go minigolfing, she asks me to comever. I do and we bone again. The next day she tells me how her mother really wants to meet me and thins is a big deal because no guys every meet her mom. I go to her house and meet her whole family...sister, mom, dad, dogs, grandma, friend of family.....things are moving fast and this is all within 2 weeks. I stay at her place that last night before she goes to Europe and I jokingly say so whats the plan, do you still feel the same with no pressure and labels lol. At this point I like her but I mean she was honest and who knows she may want to move away when she gets back so I am a bit hesistant inside. I also tell her though that I like her and I will do what it takes to get her to stay, I always jokingly say things like this and I half am, half not joking. So she leaved and we keep texting everyday for the last 10 days.

Up until 3 days ago. she called my a few days ago in the morning to talk and shes in Europe, Im thinking thats nice of her. I am also thinking though she is having fun and I am busy with work, just let her have her space. She was also getting a bit longer to respond to my texts and I go out of my way to message her while I am working so I decided to pull back a bit and let her do her thing. I send her amessage about 3 days ago saying " I am going away for work for the night and my work phone is all messed up so I dont know if I will be able to message you later". Then I put the ball in her court and said message me when you have wifi and let me know about all the fun things your up too! She never responds but reads it. 1 day goes by and she hasnt sent me a message, 2 days..nothing......3 days nothing and now today nothing. I know she wasnt put off by my message because I often have things to do for work like that and she isnt the type to give a fuck lol.

On another note last saturday, two days after this girl left, I matched a girl on Tinder and Fucked her. And I am pretty sure this girl in Europe is kissing dudes and having fun too so whatever I am cool with that....we have no lables or anything.

So now I sit wondering, well I do like this girl but I mean do I even want to date her? It seems like a straight up shit test and so far I havent budged....maybe keep holding off? Or should I banter with her a bit to get the messages flowing again? I am in a weird spot and dont really know what to do lol. Looking at things we did, I boned her many times, met her entire family. Seems like it will be all good even if we dont talk until she gets home. That being said a part of me does want her to stay and not move to Europe and maybe me giving her this space is making her forget the fun we have.....Help me out my brothers

Nice novel