She asked me to meet her at the park last night to talk. The conversation felt like a breakup, but we ended with a confirmation that neither of us were seeing anyone else and that we're "not done." We had a long hug and kiss before splitting.
She spoke about space and how she needs it, especially now as she's going through a tough time and is working hard on her career (she works retail a few days per week to support her career in music). But that I shouldn't take her lack of texting, calling, or being together to mean that there is an absence of feelings on her end.
I thought that was reasonable, since I've experienced building a career from the ground up and am familiar with the compromises that have to be made in one's life during this time. But I thought… Space? We only see each other like 2 times per week! That's my definition of space.
She brought up how she's still sorting out feelings about her ex, who lives 3000 miles away and is already in a relationship. She admitted that there aren't any plans for them to get back together, though. It's been a year since their breakup.
Part of me wants to say fuck it because I feel like she doesn't know what she wants and I don't want to be led on.
But another part of me wants to go balls deep and wear my heart on my sleeves because I do believe she's worth it.
I left our conversation feeling a bit empty handed, with little idea of what to expect from now on.
What are your thoughts about this situation?
Interesting --As I was writing this up, I received a text from her: "Hey
How are you?", Which adds to my confusion! I'm usually the one sending good morning texts, and part of my giving her space was to not do it this morning. Wtf is going on?
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