| She always felt like she's 'underneath' me, in almost every level. In looks, yes, more interesting life? Yes. She was always afraid of me leaving her when i would go to travel or something. Look, she's not unstable, she controls her emotions, but she is just sincere about them with me.
Because I'm more 'experienced' in bed and bcs I'm able to make her cum(I really, really, studied all there is to know about female orgasms, and the more I know, I see actually how more I should work on my skills in every aspect of life), she lacks some of that knowledge and when she doesn't make me feel as I make her feel she's desperate(She always tells me she will get better for me, only takes a little time). When I'm not happy, she's not happy, literally.
And now, since she got this job, she says she finally has something to offer for me, her better self(her words), now she can fight with her low self esteem and give more value to me, she makes plans in future for us, she wants to travel with me, and she can afford it, or pay it, she was also saying that there will come a time when every cent will be important. She's a keeper, I don't want to lose her, but because of that job she really became more self dependent I became more self insecure, and I showed my neediness because I felt she will meet more and interesting man. That was the reason that, my "FEAR" made her go distant. But now, everything IS way better then before, because I am again my old self, and she's not on pedestal again, she has her space, and I do give her enough attention and love. It's just balance guys(That's what I believe at least).
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