So, this girl literally has me playing emotion games inside my own head and all I keep doing is questioning myself why I'm still around. This girl and I dated for a little over a year and things ended early 2012 as I got into my last year of high school. At the time when I broke up with her I didn't feel any emotion towards her any more, it was like I lost a lot of the attraction we had when we first met. Anyway, 2012 flew by and I completed my final year of high school and the whole year she was still in love with me and I tried to find that attraction we once had but I couldn't. It wasn't until she started telling me about this other guy and then I started to feel the attractions again and as time went on the stronger it got. Going into 2013 was good between the two of us, she had told me she still loved me and I guess I started to love her again and we started dating in March and it only lasted a week. This is was because I had found out that she had hooked up with this guy the night before we got back together and knowing me I jumped to conclusions and ended the short relationship.

We continued to keep communication and I eventually in to seeing her. As of recent we started to get very close again but there’s this one guy she met and they keep talking and he doesn't like me very much because I’m her ex. We both want to be together but she said that we should be together but not official or anything. I guess because I leave in 3 months to America for college. We've talked a lot about it and she’s told me that she promises to stay truthful until I get back for Christmas; she wants to see how it feels to do long distance. But I disagreed and said wouldn't it be easier if we were together and try long distance because we’d actually be together and emotions are different when you’re together rather than not. She's told me that I'm the only person she will ever love and the only person she currently loves and she want's to be with me but she's scared about me leaving and that's all that's stopping her from being with me officially.

I don’t know what to do, should I let her go or try? She was everything to me and still is, I can’t express the emotions I feel because I don’t know how to because how do you express and explain love. I know I leave soon, but I’d rather spend the rest of my time here being happy with her rather than not but at the same the being together not officially it better than nothing but I don’t want to settle for that. She’s told me that we can’t just be friends either because of the emotions she feels. She has me wrapped up inside my head and I don’t know what to do.

My friends say to move on because once I move I'll find someone better in the USA. I can't turn down the scholarship and I never would, but it's this feeling inside of me which won't let me let her go because I love her so much. I can't imagine myself being with anyone else besides her and thought of her being with someone else literally makes me cry. I stay up all night thinking about her and I sometimes wake up during the middle of the night thinking about her. During soccer training and games she's all that's on my mind and it puts me off my game and my team and coaches have noticed something distracting me but I don't want to tell them about this girl I just shrug it off and say I'm just having a bad day, but I can't keep lying to them.

Bad idea to get seriously involved right before you leave the country. Unless she is prepared to come with you, save yourself and her the heartache.

Move on, be happy for her and what you had with her and let it go at that.

Yeah I know but she keeps tagging me along and I don't know how to say 'no' and just leave her because I can't stand the fact that she'll be with some other guy. I mean I don't care if there just friends but sometimes I get the feeling it's more than friends especially this one guy. They've gotten close and everything but she's told him that their friends but he's in love with her.

She told me that we're together but not official, should I just be happy with that or should I tell her I don't want anything to do with her?

What he said, move on long distance relationships rarely work.