| Fellas, get your head around this because I am lost.
I am in University and my best girlfriend here has a girl who is great in my eyes.
Her name is Nikki, and Nikki has a boyfriend.
Nikki told me that she liked me a week ago, drunk at a party, I didn't take it too seriously because has told a couple of guys she likes them. Anyways we chilled one on one and she told me to my face that she really really likes me, and that I have to believe her, even though I raised the point that.... she has said that other guys and she has a boyfriend.
4 days ago me and Nikki cuddled on my bed, never kissed but almost touched lips, fell asleep in each others arms. I asked her if she would leave her boyfriend, she says no, she loves him too much.
Last night, I got drunk, pretty drunk, and so did she. I sobered up, and I remembered everything of every moment. I went to bed and she came in and we cuddled, our noses touched, and SHE made the move and kissed me. After there was silence, and we kissed a few more times.
We moved to her room (her friends were telling her to leave my room and everything), anyways we started kissing again, and she said I should go. I delayed it so well and for so long, telling her she is the only one I want (I have a player reputation here) .. I meant it. I said emotional things (too much maybe for the amount of time that I have known her)... I think I said it too stay longer and lay on her body and kiss her more.
She told me to go, I left.
Today, the next day after, she ignored my text messages for a bit, she told me "I dont know how i feel about it I need some time okay? I am sorry i did it because I dont want to lead you on. I dont know what will happen at this point. All I know is i took my anger out on the soccer game and got in a few fights"..
I replied saying I will give her as much time as she needs, also saying how much I dont regret it and I care for her. I asked to meet up with her just an hour ago to talk, she said no, she cant, she has to study, and she feels guilty
I want this girl, I dont know how to play this kind of game.
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