i'm a technician, and i ran a service call today.

last call of the day, in a town i don't usually work in.

who opens the door?

my first love.

i didn't recognize her new last name from a previous marriage.

(what a total mindfuck)

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what dr. house brings to medicine, i bring to everyday life (an extreme dose of cynicism), don't listen to the curmudgeon!

Sounds like a potential "pool guy" scenario. Did you f-close?

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When in Doubt, Freeze Her Out.

Wow So how was it to see her?

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rAFC and yes, I'm a chick.

I have bursts of being a lady, but it doesn't last long.

@ spandrel:

nope. did i mention she was RE-married? her account with us was listed under her previously married name.

@ txacoli:

it was wonderful and horrible at the same time.

wonderful because i was reminded of a time when i didn't see things as i do now.
horrible because i was reminded of a time when i didn't see things as i do now.

what made the whole thing more fucked up was her new husband standing right there (dude's a total douchebag). she didn't recognize me at first (believe it or not, lol). this was probably because i'm a lot buffer, thinner, and more mature looking facially than i was when we were together. but i noticed her watching me out of my peripheral vision as i was working. once hubby disappeared she came running up with her eyes beaming and said "i think i know you! what's your name?" i turned to her and said "of course, you know me, it's *****." and then i said "how've you been?" and called her out by name. she was practically dancing in place.

a few seconds later, hubby was back. and she says "i know him" and i said "yep, we went to school together"

then it was back to business, although what i really wanted to do was just talk to her (however, i'm not into married women). i spent a few minutes talking with him and him showing me a hotrod car that he had in the back yard, was pretty sweet, and then i departed. she made sure to appear in the front yard as i was getting into my work vehicle. again, hubby was right there, so all i could say was "nice to see you again, take care". she basically stood there and watched me drive away.

now, i'm not trying to romanticize. it's just that it was a very surreal experience. seeing someone like that and not being able to really talk, when you both know inside, that you are dying to talk. not necessarily to any romantic end, but just to the fact that you were so close at one point.

probably never see the girl again, hadn't seen her in fifteen years.

god, i loved her.

/ i'm lame.

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what dr. house brings to medicine, i bring to everyday life (an extreme dose of cynicism), don't listen to the curmudgeon!

You're not lame, first love's first My first love recently got in contact with me and we started chatting and stuff. She's still the one I loved most, no matter how much resentment I once had for her and will always "love" her in a way. And I can totally relate to the wonderful-horrible thing. To me it's wonderful how I could give myself entirely and recklessly, it's the same thing that's horrible when I think about it now. So a taste of those feelings can be really good, because you know you'll never experience them again. Now listen to me, I don't know who's lamer LOL, must be the spring!

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rAFC and yes, I'm a chick.

I have bursts of being a lady, but it doesn't last long.

DON'T BE A FOOL. Find her on Facebook. Friend her. Let things develop as they see fit.

BTW, I have seen the light about Facebook. How wrong I was.

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When in Doubt, Freeze Her Out.

And that crown you wear, and the grill with the sunglasses, probably didn't help either!

I feel you man, I hope I don't run into my first ex again. I can't remember what I did to end that relationship... so I'm positive it was so emarrassing that I've repressed the memory!

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