"Alone. Yes, that's the key word, the most awful word in the English tongue. Murder doesn't hold a candle to it and hell is only a poor synonym."
-Stephen King.

I was reading this today and for the first time something hit me like a ton of bricks I was wondering If I was truly happy. I was wondering am I just settling because I'm terrified of been alone or am I honestly happy.I know your thinking well you should fucking no but honestly no one does because there are soo many women we haven't met in our whole life's how do we know we aren't missing out? we stress so much that we haven't got a woman in our lives or we can't keep them happy etc... we go out of our way to get all these things and in the end what for to settle yes I do love my girlfriend but I'm sure there's someone out there that I love more and she loves me more. I just haven't been looking, Can one of you honestly tell me that your not able to find someone that you've love and they love you back more than the woman you are seeing, married, going out with or just obsessing over. is or will she ever be good enough for you for the rest of your days.

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The Edge... there is no honest way to explain it because the only people who really know where it is are the ones who have gone over.

To me, there has to come a time when "good enough" is the realistic choice over what could be "more than good enough". Perhaps this is a bad way of phrasing it but once the person fulfills my fundamental needs and we have reached a threshold in the relationship where I feel content with them, I don't torture myself over notions of being with someone far better or greater. I simply appreciate what I have.

As for whether or not you are happy, I suspect that if you have to ask yourself this, then you probably aren't. Sometimes happiness in your life is influenced by external factors over which you have no control. I have good days and bad but at the end of the day, I'm mostly content. I know it's not possible to be deliriously happy all the time.

If you can appreciate the bad, all the good things are suddenly much more valuable and treasured. Are you chasing notions of perfection? No-one is perfect. It's a matter of acceptance and loving someone for who they really are. Taking things one day at a time and appreciating all the little things in your partner will build a stronger and better relationship. Every moment you think of how your life could have been, you waste time because you could be living life how it should be lived instead.

This might sound corny but fear is just your mind interfering with you. If you are afraid, afraid of losing someone, afraid of being alone, etc. it's just going to hold you back from getting what you really want and need. Overcome the fear so you have a clear head to think about what it is that you want and need.

Just my honest thoughts.