Alrighty, I really thought everything was getting placed together and when I got back to my second year of University. A girl that I completely adored first year rejected my afc behaviours when I told her how I felt for her throughout the whole year and yea I realize now how weak that was.

So motivation kicks in and I ask myself how much longer can this go on, I spend months focusing on one girl and when I finally do something it's the weakest thing ever leading to absolutley nothing. This is where over the summer I decided to read the game and go on these forums. It changed the way I acted completely. I decided to not waste my time on one girl and literally be a neurotic wreck.

The couple of times then during the summer where I actually tried to get with girls I was able to kiss close. I didn't feel like wanting much more but I felt the confidence of being able to get with most girls.

Anyways, back to the girl. I decided to run text game over the summer as a little side project. I wasn't expecting much but I recieved a lot or so I thought. She finally tells me over text that she was really falling for me and that she hated telling me over text but she had to. BOOM, I got out myself out of a deep friend zone. So our texts continue and we chat over the phone. Call eachother cute nicknames and at one point she tells me I wish I was with her so she could kiss me.

Now I'm like hell yea everything is working out. So we get back to school and have our first talk face to face. It was mildly awkward but I just thought it was more out of nervousness from both parties. The next day she goes out and I tried to see her but couldn't. Sadly to say I cried very hard at this point because I realized how much I wanted to be with her.

The next day I tell her we need to talk and she blows me off from meeting me. I told her I really need to talk to her alone so she said alright and told me to go to her house. I told her what's going on because the last couple of days we saw eachother she literally treated me like a friend, even go as far as saying an acquaintance.

She said she didn't feel as strongly as I did but thought that we were on the same page. So I sort of tear up and tell her that I didn't realize how weak it seemed. She said she just wasn't ready. I even asked can I at least hold your hand when I talk to you and she said she isn't ready for that. I wanted to shoot my balls off at that point. She also mentions she's so confused and I told her she needs to provide actual affection and I'm not just one of her friends. So I can't even provide kino and touching because she's not ready.

I feel completely fucked. I can't stop thinking about it, I was doing so well too. I didn't believe in having a solid relaitonship right now I didn't need that. But this girl, she was so special to me then I couldn't say no because I thought something amazing would come out of it. This is just crazy though. I put a picture of me and her in my phone as well and she said that that freaked her out. I guess that was a bad move but I just thought I had the signs there for her to like that.

Anyways, I know everyone is going to tell me to go out and fuck 17 other girls and I'll see just how much she matters to me. Maybe I should do that. I do want this to work soo badly though. But I would really appreciate any feedback so anything is fair to say.

Thanks a lot.