Hi guys,

I don't even know where to begin. I am in one of those "holy shit" situations. Here is a quick break down of the situation.

I met her two years ago. I was a pretty good PUA. I had her fall head over heels for me. She was so in love with me that she wanted to spend all of her time with me. I felt the same.

1 mistake: She was going off to do research in the rain forest for 3 months. She needed a place to put her stuff. She had no money and no family in the city, so I allowed her to store her stuff at my place and live there for two weeks (this saved her three months rent).

Result: this created a rift between my room mates and me. We had all been friends for about 8 years and our friendship group shattered because of this. I lost my dearest friends (although they probably weren't the best of friends)

2nd mistake: With my friends and me arguing about her (they told me I should break up with her, I told them to %&^ off) I get kicked out of the house. I found an apartment for her and I to live in (she didn't have a home either). We start living together after dating for 5 months (3 months of which she was away).

Result: Some good times, but a ton of arguments.

3rd mistake: Up to this point I still had a much more powerful frame then her.
She always adopted my frame and deferring to me for most of the decision making. However, this began to irritate me (I was uncomfortable with having so much power over her) so I started building her up. I gave her more compliments then were necessary and more reassurance than is healthy. I lied to her about certain things (her body, the strength of my love for her etc). I did all this to make her feel like she was my equal and I still do. I also proposed to her to give her the security she wanted (she accepted instantly, she was so happy that day).

4th mistake: My job took me out of town a lot. It was also dangerous, but it paid well. I quit it to go back to school to become a medical professional because I thought this doing this would allow us to live a more stable life.

Result: Without the money from my job we had to move in with my parents. She eventually graduated and started working and pulls in a bit of money, but not much.

5th mistake: Because I am in school she buys everything for me, my clothes, my food, gas, car, everything. This allows me to continue through school. I am still building up her confidence but I have built her up to a point where she now thinks she is better than me. Slowly this is putting me in a situation where my confidence is slipping. I am beginning to stutter (I have never stuttered before in my life) and I try hard not to hurt her or offend her. However, she does not make the same effort. She is starting to resent me and I am becoming her whipping boy. I cant concentrate on my studies. I will lose thousands of dollars if this gets to me and I fail my classes. My anxiety is going through the roof.

So here I am. I am very good looking, I am an elite athlete , I am about to enter the world of medicine (high paying job and respect), but I am being completely destroyed inside. I have lost so much of my confidence it is a struggle to get through the day. I am depressed, anxious and some days I hate myself intensely.

She takes control of everything I do. She tells me what to do and when to do it. I am totally whipped and there doesn't seem to be any way out (remember I rely on her for everything). I think back to the days when she thought I was amazing and wish I could go back. Now I have adopted her frame and it is destroying my life.

Can someone help? Please?