I started to sarge about a year and a half ago with one of my friends. I was one of those guys who always wanted a good girlfriend but couldn't get the girl I felt I deserved and had no idea that game existed. I was always stuck with the feeling of being lonely and wanted someone bad. When I started to sarge and gain confidence and successful 90% of the time. I met this hot girl who had alot of baggage but was really hot and good with sex so I stayed with her for awhile, two weeks after I meet another girl. I was so insecure that I kept both of them around and played a ridiculouse game and haveing two girlfriends, guilt was killing me so I broke it off to the first girl and decided to be faithful to the other girl.

But I was insecure still and didn't want to let go of the game and continued to sarge girls and number close but wouldn't call them. I called it my insurance policy. Just so I could feel secure. After being with this girl for a year I broke up with her cause I wanted to pick up girls and also really meet other people. I was limiteding myself to what I could do and couldn't do.

I am 27yrs old and a late bloomer in life. I feel like I am just wakeing up to certain things in life. I feel if I stay with her I will be missing out. But on the flip side I feel I am that loosing something that I won't find again.

Is there anybody there who has something good to say, please feel free. I want to keep this girl in my life and have a life long relationship untill I feel the single life isn't for me anymore. I never truely lived the single life and feel I will regret missing this time.

Yep, I know what you mean. I am few years older then you and in LTR for last 8 yrs. I had also huge problem with dealing with a fact that I am "doomed" to 1 exclusive girls and that I miss soooo many opportunities in life. Being around many beauties every day and knowing the fact that I can PU most of them made me crazy. But on the other hand, I don`t want to be PUA or to describe it better - guy who`s life mission is to sarge girls all life without setteling with one. No, I want a family, kids, house, gatherings, watching kids grow up, becoming succesfull people, son becoming PUA and chasing babes etc., in other words, I want a normal life.

Does that exclude PUA lifestyle? In many situations it does. I will nevcer travel around world, teaching people on seminars, writing a book earn for money on it etc. I will never fuck every cutie that I can, I will never go out with mission to sarge. I will never live in some new "Project Hollywood" etc.

What I will do, and am doing is being nice to people, meet lots of new people every day, I will sarge girls but more indirectly (interacting with them without them even have a clue that I am trying to seduce them) but making them trying to pick ME up actaully. I will go out with friends and have a shit load of fun, knowing that that type of behaviour will make many cuties lay thei eyes on me. I will enjoy in fact that girls will ask me my phone number or add me as a friend on facebook after they meet me. My PU ego will be, or better to say IS very high and satisfied. I enjoy the fact that I am still ON, but my DECISION is to be faithfull to my baby. Did I ever cheat her in last 8 yrs? Yes I did and I was feeling like shit after that. Will I cheat again? Probably but not for every cause. I cheated when shit load of things happened at a same time, but I never cheated with attention to cheat, it was just a moment of blackout.

I do enjoy when gorgeous girls are attracted to me but in 99%, just achieving that makes me happy and I don`t have a need to go to the end. Actually, I do but I eject and go away from temptation. It also gives you a huge social value (being atractive but faithfull) so the circle keeps turning in your favour.


Anyway, although it may sound complicated it is actually not. I hope I helped you a bit.

Marco

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Thanks for the reply Marco. It does make me feel better hearing other experiences. I think about this girl all day but when there is another girl around or my buddies want to go out I turn on and am so excited that I am single. Everybody in my life is used to seeing me without a girl and finally I have this beautiful, sweet girl that I one day just get up and think I don't want to be limited to just this. I want to meet beautiful women and make valuable contacts and make something better in my life. Like you I love the interactions, the confidence to not only talk to girls but also to guys, wealthy people ect..

Thanks again for the reply. I truley appreciate it..