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Here is my menage management in process-
keep ur eye out for wordplay, metaphor, hypnotic language, ambiguity, mirror/matching- pacing and leading.
This is a my currently successful approach to gaming extra girls for group sex with my girlfriends.
Oh, some background- i'm met rsvp girl 1 week after 'kissing' her on a dating site.. then a brief lunch meet by the lake, and then I stood her up last wed nite for comedy, then took her to a funky bar on Sat night.
Any opinions, comments and advice are welcome.
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Mud-
Subject: goodybe cuddles
Yum!
well, im up bright an early and im not even cranky..
yet.
What a great night. I really enjoyed the time with you.
youl have to let me know when u have more free time to hang out and drink damiana again tongue.gif
RSVP GIRL-
Wow you were up pretty early. I got home and to bed after 3am but got up at 8am without hesitation and off to work. It was great!
I tried all day to be 'in the moment' and man did it make a difference to the experience of my day, how I felt when children when they were misbehaving, among other things. It was really awesome and I'm going to try and do it more often!
I really want to break some of my boundaries BJM and get out of my comfort zone. I'm SO afraid though and think that I will hold myself back for some reason and be chicken shit.
Maybe I need a gentle nudge to test my limits (Or maybe a big F8cken push?!!) lol
On Friday when you pulled the back of my hair, showing the reptilian brain. I had a wave of energy rush down my body. It felt really bloody good. I zoned out from what you were saying to me and could only think of straddling you.
I didn't for reasons that really amount to nothing. All just fear and bullshit.
*how socially appropriate it is to rub yourself up against someone in a bar (Meh, I'm sure I've worse than that)
*maybe he'll throw me off him (Hmm.. I wonder if that will actually turn me on more..? It that kinda f*cked up? lol)
*If I do that then I'll have to do a), cool.gif. c) or d).. (ugh... No, I don't have to do anything but what I'll do. Duh.)
Yeah so I had a great night too. biggrin.gif
Mud:
Subject: nape
of the neck.. hair pull- old trick wink.gif Realold, from the time when men still dragged their women back to the cave..
lol
You were meant to zone out and ignore what I was saying..
I just can't believe I didn't notice you go through that experience- it musta been the hand and the head..
getting in the way of something even more enjoyable.
You wanna breaksome boundaries.. "..BJM" ? that feels like kinda like a formal and 'heartfelt'..? I am the boundary breaker- though I have my own habits and comforts too- I'll help you shake yours if you help me shake mine off smile.gif
while you still better continue to tell me how specifically you think that may relate to me - im not sure if we're talking hearts, heads or private parts.. tongue.gif ...
I think your in the market for some new information..
my hardiSk folders go:
seduction
sprituality
welath,success and power
NLP
hypnosis
e-boooks
and across various themes ranging from t.c magick, shamanism, yoga, chigung, hypnosis, psychoterapy, new age..
let me know what interests you most, first- and il copy u a selection og goodies
So.
If you agree to challenge me.. il continue being me.. smile.gif ... and we'll all challenge each other.
oh btw- check out kittys profile: (********) password: *****
When do u wanna hang out again?
xo
RSVP Girl:
Ahh.. that makes sense now (nape).
Partly why I miss my long hair- not having long hair to pull or grab onto.
"I'll help you shake yours if you help me shake mine off smile.gif"
Its a deal smile.gif
How it might relate to you... well from your own words - you're 'the boundary breaker".. lol.
You have taste of danger about you? do your hear that a lot? Or people tying to taste you? (hmm.. i don't really know what I mean by that.. tongue.gif)
And I think I'm talking a bit of all three.
I'm definitely in need of some new information!!
Maybe you could invite me over and put some info on my thumb drive?
Ok what jumps out at me from that lists mainly:
seduction, spirituality and hypnosis.
I really want to upload and live some more creative and empowered models of sexuality and sensuality. Because my history is riddled with sexual abuse I built all these ways of interacting that served me well at the time, but are now no longer needed. I feel so f8cken scared of something that is such a big part of me. Its odd. I have reclaimed and 'reinstalled' a lot of newer more productive models, But not completing in that old ways of interacting still lurk in the corners of me..and come up sometimes.. But I guess its just programming..
My old script advises me not to disclose what I just wrote, but I guess I'm going to try not to listen to that script so much..
I wish I was at home so I could check out that dating site and Kittys profile!
At the beginning of last week I had a really interesting dream about you and Kitty. Its kind of strange because I don't know her but I did in my dream/fantasy. anyway you weren't so much involved it, as kind of a bystander in an encounter between her and I.
God damn... I'm SO distracted now. I'm supposed to be focusing on work.. But its safe to say that is definitely not what is on my mind, or in my body right now!
Hmm..
I don't have anything on Wednesday evening this week. Yay! I just remembered that I have Thursday off for Study leave too! I love leave...
*j*
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Mud
subject: and other delicate places..
Ohkay : )
Yeah... there is danger about me. Make of that what you will
- its still seems part of my journey. I think its like the lion or Gorilla can sometimes seem fierce.. even though their pack or pride can feel totally at peace, feel totally permitted and totally comfortable.
Now, with me- im building those models you speak about aswell... slowly, before completely 'getting it', I think. Talked to Kitty heaps about you.. she's excited and relieved at the same time, that the situation that did challenge her.. is even now continuing to evolve into other possiblities. I'm not sure where things can lead, but its fun when we stop controlling and can just surrender.
Of course.. just quietly, she's been fantasizing about you too;) How do 2 women fantasize about each other before even meeting?
You see, me.. I am the pleasure provider. The catalyst and the cause for such experiences that (really) I could and wont claim such things.. haha.. Becuase looking back, it will all seem so automatic, so natural and so easy to have experienced such incredible new feelings..
haha- yeh, at least a few ppl have experienced with me.. just a lil tad of EGO.. but we gotta have fun with ourselves, don't we?
Anyway, I hope its toally ok if I want to rub my body up against yours some more.. teehe he.
From what i've experienced, the union of 2 soft, cool, sensual female forms.. is somewhat sacred.. something that needs to, and can be explored in the presence of that danger who keeps things feeling safe..
balancing the wild, with the timid.. lol.. The strength, the heat and the power too.
Regardless,
when force melts reistance.. and softness demands softness.. after hot meets cold.. when hand holds hand, and each forgets which is which.. once the lines of pleasure blur and you begin to feel like you have all the power to build new boundaries that you never had- building even more, now-
I didn't expect you to list 'seduction'- but, that pleases me immensely. Good girl tongue.gif
haha. btw- i write every morning after strong coffee on an empty stomach.. Remember- you don't need to make sense of me on a conscious level;)
can i email u an e-book, or better to give it to you in person?
oh, anyway- if you immediately, or otherwise find that you and Kitty have some kind of incredible instant, sexy connection.. please, acknowledge that she felt just as you did only mere weeks before now. And yeah, it began with loving male counterparts enjoying the show. Allowing space for the tenderness.
With Kitty- she's a raging nypmho.. but let that not just turn you on.. (tongue.gif)
Theres still friendship and respect floating around here.. (!)
Anyway, all this is heresay and imagination isnt it?
Its slightly fucked.. cos i get a lil jealous about not being imediately included in the girl on girl play.. (still with the imagination- sigh) but I do have far more patience after we have.. had a little taste of each other..
ok, too many words. il leave it there for a touch wink.gif
xox
RSVP girl:
Oh BigJonMud. I LOVED what you wrote!
That is really interesting that two women who haven't even met or chatted or emailed or had any contact are fantasizing about similar things.. I like it. wink.gif
Ha- yeah I think that would be more than okay. I woud love to be rubbed up against you some more.. I think right now actually..
my colleague is probably confused as to why I keep pulling strange faces at my desk and am shifting around on my chair with my leg crossed over the other. You are a very bad man invoking such feelings in such a normally well composed woman while she is trying to be professional and do some work.... don't stop. wink.gif
Yeah if you want to email an e-book that would be cool.
A raging nympho hey... interesting.. I don't think I know any woman who would fall unders that title.
haha. poor Jon Mud wasn't included in the girls fantasies. lol tongue.gif
Your ego can rest assured that you starred in your own.
so are you going to invite me to do something?
There is an awesome show coming soon. if your keen you, me and Kitty could all get some take out or something and then head out to that (I think its at xxxx). Or not.
Whatevers' clever (a cool saying, BJM - I think I shall borrow that from you ) wink.gif
*j* xx
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( There were a few sidenotes and some more chitchat, then this)
RSVP girl:
Subject: Tingling body parts
Good to know I'm not the only one with tingling body parts.
I think you have the right idea about just hanging out with us two. I imagine I may automatically get a bit awkward around (gf#1) initially as generally I feel dodgy meeting a girl when I want to fuck their boyfriend. (thinking - "can they read me, are they going to beat me up? etc. lol) While I know that that won't be the case. It might take a bit to shake that feeling.
I have school tonight and yoga class tomorrow so those nights are no good.
Maybe we could do something Friday evening?
Or we could meet for lunch tomorrow? or both.. let me know what you think.
Is it evil that I enjoy others getting nervous.. haha..
BJM:
Subject: tingles.. come.. just before pulsing waves of delight
dont they?
Now,
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yeh.. just alil bit evil
You know, (gf#2) had some small challenges to face before she found a completely comfortable frame with it all.
Too, as a person finds that they can open their heart.. open their mind, as much as it seems to take most ppl when they get to know me..
it's as if all kinds of boundaries can blur..
only as easy,
as newer and more effective definitions emerge.
Now with me, being in an ongoing process of more and more appropriately being oneself- i'v found that people usually realise all the same epic stuff..
(the universality of truth and whatever)
which doesnt mean to say it's always ok..
because for (gf#2) even- I think it's still all still 'in process too'- only yesterday she wrote to Kitty again, deeply explaining her own sensitivity to how it must be to share your loved love with another who also loves them.
What i'm saying is, that gf#2 felt like that too- even after spending a night cuddling on the couch, in front of the fire- nestled at the foot of a sacred aboriginal mountain.. while on retreat to take the red pill. Gf#2 still felt a little likes she's breaking some kind of rules. With me, I want all the rules to be broken all of the time... and to have everyone all at once know just how powerful they are in creating EVERYTHING that they are thinking, feeling and experiencing. With me, this equates to pure and total FREEDOM.
while this is all abit 'big picture'.. its kinda how i think.
I realy must get around to the details one day. lol.
So No- (gf#1) wont wannab eat you up.. rather, she takes avery special pleasure in mine.. and me, in her pleasure too.
This is getting right into my relationship paradigm:
-loves frees, it does not capture- or seek to control. It liberates.
- "love requires nothing but itself, and gives naught but from itself"
- Commitment, should first be to ones highest principles and Self, and secondly to the 'other'
Anyway lunch tomorow would be cool. Shall I refrain from driving you to some secluded park, by the water with a blanket in the sunshine? yes, perhaps I shall.. lol.
We'll be in touch about Friday- I have to get my bearings, (check my busy schedule) and get back to you tongue.gif
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