Hey! I'm hoping to spend a fair bit of time here so it's only polite to introduce myself. I'm a 21 year old university student from the UK, and yesterday I made my mind up that I needed to better myself. Yesterday my relationship ended (I was dumped, in other words) over the usual things women say in order to avoid having to give an explanation. She said I was the 'perfect boyfriend, but not perfect for her'- which I've translated to 'I don't respect you enough to tell you the real reason because you're just an AFC'.

Yesterday, about an hour before I was dumped, I finished reading The Game by Neil Strauss. A friend had introduced it to me and I'll admit that at first I was wary, like most people who look at the community superficially I thought it was just a sleazy way to trick women into bed. But it opened my eyes (such a cliche I know). There's nothing wrong in learning how to be a more effective person, a more pleasant person to be around in social situations. Maybe I was just scared of admitting I needed improvement in something that is commonly considered to be a basic part of human life.

In any case, I'm hoping to use this kick in the head to wake up and change.

What I'm most interested in is gaining confidence, which is very low at the moment but is always on the lower end of the scale. I think it's because, out of all the skills I utilise on a day to day basis, I have some that are quite high and some that are very low, and I only feel as good as the one that I'm least skilled at. I hope that makes sense. An example: I recently found out I'm top of the roll of honour at university, again, but hearing that didn't make me happy. I felt as shit hearing that as I did walking down the street thinking I was being judged for my poor looks, or when I fumble a social situation. So I'm going to try to improve in the areas that drag me down.

Anyway, thanks for reading, I hope to stick around and do lots of reading myself!