| Hello everyone,
First off, let me introduce myself: I am a 23 year old graphic designer based in toronto.
I have only ever had one girlfriend, in highschool and that was a very short relationship.
I have only kissed 3 girls. 1, was a spin the bottle kind of thing. 2, was my very short high school relationship…which was even more pathetic than that 1st one. 3, was on Saturday night, which I will explain in full detail, later on.
My score, as I am sure you may have guessed by now, is a big zero…
There it is, I just told a bunch of people I have never met, on an online forum, that I am a 23 year virgin…
I am probablly not the worst case that is out there, but I am in need of some help.
Secondly, I would like to explain my post title, also tieing in to the 3rd kiss I told you I would explain.
Saturday night, I somehow managed to get a beautiful girl (she was a 10 in my books, also we were aqintences before hand.) outside in the parking lot, we made out, quite passionatly… (of course a 1st for me.) As some of the people she was with piled out, they offered her a ride home, but she refused and chose to stay with me.
I get her to my room, where she proceeds to strip down to her thong and crawl under the sheets. I proceed to do the same and crawl under the sheets with her. I start kissing her neck and back, for the first few seconds she was up for it. Then all of a sudden, she looks at me and says, “This is not going to happen.” (unfortunaltly I had not read anything about LMR or anything like that yet, as I have no prior exposer to the game. I have virtually no experience…) I know now, that I made the mistake of being persistant, because I continued to kiss her slowly… trying to entice arousal. The next thing she says to me is, “Really, this is not going to happen, but you can cuddle with me at least.”
So, not knowing what to do, I settled for the cuddling…
A short nap later, we woke up and began to talk. She tells me, “I really like you and I have a huge crush on you… but, I just turned 19 a little while ago, I just don’t want to start anything with you right now.” Blah blah blah, she proceeds to tell me that she didn’t want to end up hurting me, because she dosent know what she wants… blah, blah, blah. At this point I stopped listening to what she was actully saying and got dressed.
After I dropped her off, I said to myself, “Never again, will I let that happen.” It is time for a change… I got home and surfed the web, it wasn’t very long before this forum surfaced, been reading it almost non-stop since.
Well thanks for taking the time to read my shit, I hope this is the proper step for the change I am looking for. _________________ Modern~
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