I'm 26. I served in the military (infantry) for 5 years, including a tour to Afghanistan. I met a girl in Indonesia and picked up and moved there. She was an 11. I don't know how I got her, but she was into me and we banged all the time in every place (La Senze change room, resort swimming pool, restaurant bathrooms, in rooms where we weren't alone). The sex was amazing, but then she also did drugs and turned out to be a high class escort. She was crazy and so damn smart at manipulating people (guys mostly) into getting what she wanted--she didn't care what kind of buttons to push. I was naive and I didn't know anything about girls. After 8 months of living with her it ended.

I noticed she was most attracted to me when I acted like I didn't care, but actually I cared a lot and it was a lie for me to act like I didn't. We became hateful to each other (which made for better sex), but she also got to me. She told me a lot of things about girls and since she was so beautiful (and I in love) I really took to heart what she said. Things like how once a guy must always be above a girl and once he loses it he can never become on top again; or how girls like assholes because there is something exciting about the fact that they might leave them at any time. Now, I'm worse off than before because I always screw up the balance of assholeness to kindness. No need for details, but she was also an evil bitch (maybe that was my fault).

I learned in the army how to be a good man and how to be respectful, but it seems that this "nice" quality is often mistaken for weakness. I'm only 5'8" and not particularly big for a soldier (though I was pretty big in Afghanistan), I spend much more time developing skills and admirable qualities than trying to get bigger again--it seems girls really like this.

I can do everything, pick up a girl or be in a relationship. I can play guitar, I can sing, I can beatbox, I can dance, I can draw, I can even write poetry. I was a television show host when I was in Indonesia and I modelled. Now I'm a mechatronics engineering student.


So I'd like to forget everything I know and start new. I'm here because it's been too long since and I really want to find a girl, not just for banging.

I wanted to make an edit to my post; it conveys the opposite idea.

I mean to say, I can do everything, BUT pick up girls, or be in a relationship. Those things I am god aweful at. I'm worse than the 15 year old boy who has never had an experience in his life. I am mind fucked and am trying to undo the crap that happened.

On a side note, and purely for pride, I wanted to add that I was the one who ended the relationship; though, it's not much of a consolation since I'd already left and taken her back after being cheated on and lied to.

Welcome to the forums!

You're not the first guy posting on here about falling for a pro - and you won't be the last.

Don't feel too bad about it. They're good, and it's how they make their living so they have to be good.

The important thing here is that you've recognized this was a mistake and that you want to improve.

Start by reading up on approach anxiety. It's a big one that is tough for just about everyone.

Watch some YouTube videos and find a style you like and that is close to the image you try to project. And search for or create a topic here whenever you run into issues and we will try to help you through it.

Your experience is interesting and I'm sure you have learned a lot from it. Yes it's a great idea looking into youtube and learn alot from there. I recommend you search for Adam lyons, jason Capital or Richard la ruina.

Mod edit: it is against the forum rules to advertise yourself of your business in posts or PMs. Please don't do this.

wish you success with women

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