Greetings everyone!
I'm new to posting here, but not new by any means. I've feel as if I've reached a point where I know enough about his community to engage in good conversation.
I'd like to get right into it.
I have several things I classify myself as above par at and others, as most of us I'm sure, I need to improve on.
I'm a very thin, yet toned white male. Good facial structure and overall well kept. I weigh only 155 pounds at 5'10 however which leads to some issues with "thicker" women that I find attractive. I'm working out on the regular now and putting on much more mass which is greatly increasing my self confidence, which was already quite high.
I'm not afraid to talk to women in anyway, if anything I talk to them too often. At one of my jobs I've had a history with some of the women there and naturally, rumors spread. None of my previous relationships with these women ended badly. I have a way with words, even when its over as disappointed as they may be, they still want to be a part of my life. Yet, eventually jealousy takes hold of them and they being to despise what we had.
The Majority of my friends are jealous because of my way with women, but I'm here to become better. I want to be able to have whatever HB I want. Usually, I have a more difficult time approaching older HB's. Women in their 30's that I find extremely attractive, I have a hard time with the conversation. I know their women too but I just feel as if I relate to HB's my age, or younger. I would also like to work on being able to close with women quicker than I do currently.
Anyways, I live in New York currently. I have no close friends that I would ever consider to be socially developed enough or interested enough to be my wing. I'm riding solo here. Is having a wing, in your personal opinions, a huge benefit?
My numbers are currently only in the teens. However, I've fooled around with around 40 women. Fooling around is more than just making out to me. Why is there such a huge difference in how many girls i completely closed with (intercourse) and those whom I "fooled around" with? The answer is quite simple, yet complex. I enjoy the game, alot. I love the attention. However, deep down I feel that someday, I'll want to settle down with that one "special person." When that special person comes around, I want to be completely open and honest with her, that includes telling her how many people I've slept with. I don't want her to be terrified of that number. That alone, is keeping me back. Why do I think this way? To my knowledge, I haven't met this woman yet. What if I never do? Why am I not banging all of these women that I could? Afraid of disease? Afraid of pregnancy? or is it truly this deep subconscious thought process that I want the girl of my dreams, to not be disgusted with me. Some may say I never need to tell her, which is true. But, I tell you this, I'd want to. I'd want to have that serious relationship with someone at some point in my life that's so deep we know everything about each other... But until that day, which better be a while from now. I'm going to be one dirty little bitch
Excuse my rambling...
I guess my goal here is to have great conversation with others alike, I lack this type of conversation in my personal life outside of the internet and am in deep hopes the community can help. I'm also in hopes that I can help others with my experiences as well.
Please, if you have any thoughts on any of the miscellaneous bull shit I discussed, lets talk.
CHAT