Hi friends,

I'm a 21 year old college student from Amsterdam. If you're from Amsterdam please PM me, because I'm still looking for wings.

I've been in the game for about a year now. With alot of success but I lost it halfway through. Let me explain it to you.

I started gaming about a year ago.. maybe 1.5 years.. I went to bars and approached loads of girls and it worked. Within 2-3 months I had a gf. This happened to be a major mistake but the mistake lasted for around 6 months. After the 6 months I was finally 'free' again and ready to improve my game. At this time the gaming really started because my ex and I broke up just before the summer break.. loads of partys and festivals came up. In 2 months I was able to kiss-close an (for me) incredible amount of girls.. lets say around 20-30. Beside that I even F-closed a few girls and had a threeway kiss.. As you can imagine my confindence levels were peaking and I could easily seduce almost any girl I wanted.

However, summer breaks don't last forever and I had to start studying again and I really lost something there. In the summer I even fell in love with a girl, which almost never happens. We dated a couple of times after the summer break and I thought we'd become something but somehow I managed to fuck up. I lost my confidence and started to behave different.

In the months thereafter.. so until now. I have kiss closed a few girls.. haven't f-closed anyone and haven't had sex for to long. Lets say 6+ months. Besides that I fucked up a potential girlfriend who meant something to me.

Of course I still try to game.. and it sometimes works. However, this weekend I fucked up again.. and failed to kiss close because I lacked confidence and was to intimidated by the girl. She was a HB9 doing a research master in filosofy. This shouldn't intimidate me at all considering my own college education.

I know I have it in me and I hope I can get it out with your help. Spring and summer are coming up so I better get my shit together.

Things I need to improve: My lack of confidence. My AA.. really got it bad this time. And my social skills. Which all go hand in hand.

I hope to make some new friends here.. learn some new things and get back at it. Because last summer I really was on fire. I can't even believe that was actually me.

Havic,