Fuck you.

Alright allow me to introduce my lame ass self. I am wikinger.. I am a modern berserker.. by ancestry. By blood I am both viking and teutonic warrior.. why is it so hard in the modern age? I am full of frustration and rage..

I don't suck at relating to women, they suck at relating to me but I am here to learn how to train them to relate to me better.

I know I won't get along with all of you, it's a mistake to try. I know some of you I will enjoy and others I will be inspired by and learn from. We have to choose. Just cause we have a common interest (growing balls) doesn't mean we'll harmonize together and we are not a community, we are a network. A true community is old and young, men and women.. how we are meant to live as humans.

I am a masculine male indo-european who likes sex with heterosexual co-eds. My energy is pathetic when I relate to people because I'm always pissed off, for this reason and that reason (they are all good reasons). PRobably more important than learning to score is building my non existant career. I'M in my early 30s. I recently became anti-religous. What's that quote. the legal system is injustice, the government is anti-freedom, universities are anti-education, religion is anti-spirituality, media is anti-information, medicine is anti-health. that's what I think, everything is a racket. I am interested in the lives of remarkable people, like Napoleon, Alexander, ALexander Solzhenitsyn, Hitler and Caesar. I'm a passionate person who is apathetic now. I think if I had a religion it would be tantra- the conquest of reality.. believe in dharma and karma and maya- hey these are sanscrit terms=indo european= western civilization!!! Not that I like intellectualism, but I like to understand the ideologies that rule the world.. so I am interested in history of ideas- marxism, feminism, communism, capitalism.. I want my freedom..I probably just waste my time..

I must turn weakeness into strenght.. or I will keep going in circles. I must give birth or this will just be mental masturbation, fantasy. I believe in turning fantasy into reality, not vice versa..therefore I don't spank it. I'm a lover and a fighter.. I just have few opportunities for either..

I want to be direct in my methodology, or at least as direct as possible. I want to be able to be direct anyway. Women scare easily, they are the insecure ones and they project onto us. They are obsessed with not seeming insecure.. especially these last few generations.. I want a german university student.. those are the cream of the crop of women to me.

I want women to have one night stands with, women to have insta-fucks with, women to have relationships with, like badboy and juggler-- my two favorite people in the network.. most are dumbasses...

I wouldn'T be here if I wasn't frustrated in the outside world. I need to develop my identity even further and be more secure in it. Of course I've fucked women before.. I've given them so much pleasure.. it's just I'm better at relationships and at fucking than I am at pickup. I Feel like I can always get one of the two depending- trust and comfort or else attraction. Hard to get both at the same time, I'm a bit impatient I guess.. I need victories in life to raise my testosterone and then I Think it will start a domino effect.

Make your own rules. Don't be ruled by others, unless you live in a community, where the rules are necessary and make sense. We live in a broken society so we are free to do as we please as long as we don't get arrested.

Follow your libido. Don't let your libido be enticed and betrayed.. Women at least in this generation have no honor.. they simply do what they feel in the moment. It's why a bit part of my philsophy, what I desire is to be able to train them how to relate to me. I'M bad at setting frames and being congruent with them.

I plan to go back and study accounting.. hopefully that will give me the independence and career I need, and I can work for a german firm maybe or travel the world anywho. Woudl be nice to have somethign to throw myself into. Would also love to learn to work with my hands.. carpentry, household stuff.. I need to start living.

We need the government, we need authority.. I believe in authority, but fuck political correctness. fuck this one party state. Fuck this nanny state. Fuck this vassal government. Progressives are idiots. This affects you and me because the view one has of authority will affect the way a woman sees a man as an authority or not.. at least a man has to be dominant in the bedroom and fifty fifty everywhere else.. at least.. most men aren't. most women are cunniving. Again when I try be dominant and straight I may or may not get attraction but I don't get trust and they shun me. I want women but I can't be bothered to do all this work picking women up. I'm in a bit of a jam. Again I'm just in a dry spell.. I Think once I get a good lay in, it will start a domino effect, and I will be more my easygoing self.. I'm not so easygoing at the moment but I don'T like anything to go to waste. I like to use my dissatisfaction to climb the mountain of achievement and consciousness.

I never cared about popularity, but I think I should care about these "feminine" things.. or else I won't get laid. In a way I need to have more of a kind of humility. It is not easy for me. I am obstinate. One thing I will say, I will not bend or flex without getting "paid" in the form of ass but if I get that ass, that pussy, then maybe I can relax a bit..

more about me: I have spent a lot of money in various periods and lately on pick up/seduction books. they don't really help, at least they don'T give one the breakthroughs one needs and often they can do more harm than good.. I can't help reading them among many other types of books when I'm bored, for self-amusement.

I've noticed women have their shit together, more than a lot of men. They have their schedules and hobbys and they are expecting we have all the same.. I have my health and pride in that, I don't have hobbies I have missions and adventures. I put all my eggs in one basket. Another way we don't relate. I teach english in different countries but that's finished.. I am probably just a ball of intensity, that they would like to get to know and relate to.. but how can you? I want to be like the sun and shine on people, and open them up. I want to scorch my enemies and expose those who hide in darkeness and then to beautiful frustrated women I want to be the sun and to my family and those I love in the manosphere. You might think I'm highly delusional but can I help what I desire, what springs from the core of my being? I may be frustrated but I don't consider myself average.. forget nisights and even connections here I'M looking for breakthroughs. I've decided I'M committed to the long haul, to do what it takes to get where I want to be.. not necessarily through this network but wherever I must look. Again I like juggler and badboy the best, I don't know anyone else who comes close.

victories will help you overcome demoralization. Perseverence, perseverence.. knowledge is more important than imagination. Consciousness is the sole antidote to suffering.

oh yeah also I think all men go through stages, like knight and prince and crisis and king.. don't ever let yourself get stuck in a stage and don't think that's all there is. It is written inside us what we have to be no matter how society tries to demonize or denormalize it. social norms in the modern world are inane. can't go wrong with identity or with consciousness or with courage.. maybe not enough to procure sex but can'T go wrong with them.