I am 33 years old and, long story short, am incredibly insecure around women whom I find attractive. With the (somewhat implausible) goal of turning the tide on this insecurity and experiencing success with women I have recently been doing some research online to try and find ways to work on improving this aspect of myself. Said search has lead me to David Wygant's site, purchasing a copy of 'The Game" (I just got it and am on page 50) and now reaching out to a PUA forum in conjunction with reading the book. I know myself - I would much prefer getting and offering support from other AFC's as I move forward with this process… since failure is a requisite for success I'll definitely thrive off of support from others.

Just had a 1st date with a beautiful blonde on Wednesday night, we had spoken on the phone a handful of times leading up to our first date and all of those conversations went really well. She is easy to talk to, great/similar sense of humor, high energy and great outlook on life. She definitely seemed interested in me and upon reflection I can remember at least two IOI's; in fact at the end when I walked her to her car I was fairly certain that she wanted to kiss me but I ended with a hug instead. Before we parted I said this was fun and we should go out again to which she agreed… sorta gave herself an 'out' by saying she might have plans w/ her sister Friday. Called her yesterday (Thur) to ask her out on Fri but she said she decided to go out w/ her sister bc she hasn't seen her in a while (and apologized - ouch). Pretty sure this is an indication of a line gone cold and am considering giving up… and advice for next move? Any chance of recovery? I am disappointed but not ready to give up [on the whole 'getting better with women thing'] - just offering my most recent example.
I critiqued myself afterwards: some highlights - 1. Was nervous waiting for her at the bar (I got there first and she was a few min late) and felt anxious sitting by myself; felt like the whole room could sense my anxiety. 2. Talked too much and didn't listen enough - didn't dig deeper and exhaust topics before moving on to a new one. 3. Cut her off sometimes when she said something relatable. 4. We used each others bar stool foot rests and she let her legs touch mine; she touched my leg several times with her hand. I never touched her. 5. I never made the conversation sexual. 6. Of course, the hug and not the kiss goodbye.
I live just north of Baltimore, MD - just took a job that affords me nights and weekends off - would love to "sarge" w/ others and learn in the process. First question: you get to the meet spot first - do you go in? Wait outside? if you go in what's an alpha way to spend your time waiting?

Welcome dude. Ditch the AFC label now. You're beyond that because you're improving yourself
Work on this. A girl who's into you may feel you're not into her if you keep your hands to yourself.

Read this man: viewtopic.php?f=25&t=190620

No pain no gain. If you're new to this you're going to have to deal with a few painful experiences until you're actually ready to take it on. So if you felt ouch when in reference to the blonde, thats good. Its a signal that you now have a reason to grow.

Welcome to the forum.

If you have any direct questions just let me know.

For you inside/outside question.. You have to set your own boundaries in life. Whats alpha is what you feel confident about doing. Following someone else model of what alpha is, is a beta. Betas follow the alphas. An alpha makes his own way.

Peace bro.

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Thank you for replying to my post - and for your thought on the inside/outside thing. I know this is going to get worse before it gets better. Going out tonight with the goal of approaching, and will take the newbie mission #1 this weekend.
I'm definitely going to keep posting questions and reflections b/c it makes me feel better and (now that I know someone's reading these) seems like a valid outlet for ideas and advice.
Thanks again Eddie and OceanX