Hello,

I am 26 years old and while I have been successful in life so far I am a complete disaster with women.

Let me tell you a bit about my life first.

When i got out of high-school and went to college I allowed my high-school GF to basically tag along with me. This is where My trouble began I think. That first year away from home should have been spent socializing and getting to know lots of girls but instead I was attached and allowed it to turn into the only relationship I had.

We broke up and I spent the rest of my college career making a few friends but having zero ladies around.

currently I work at a place where I make 800 dollars a day. Great money, but with that comes one major draw back. I work 28 days straight, no contact with the outside world (except for what I can do on my smartphone of course). I then get 14 days off.

while the money is excellent and the two weeks off is a nice chunk of time to have fun. I find myself usually alone at home just wiling away my life doing nothing but riding my motorcycle on occasion and sitting at home, beating myself off, and then beating myself up for not having the gusto to get out there and get some.

I really don't even have any friends here to speak of since I moved for my job.

It is strange. socially I am extremely charismatic if I choose to be. I just went to a wedding for example. I must have had dozens of people throughout the night, particularly females, hanging around listening to what i had to say, totally engrossed, all wanting to get to know me. Yet, I am afraid I simply don't know how to escalate the situation. it just sort of sputters out and the moment is gone.

I started experimenting with eye contact awhile ago. Found it fascinating. My mannerisms are peculiar to say the least and I have started to try and straighten myself out, become that sort of alpha male character. head held up, back straight , chest out slightly, strong eye contact, etc. but when it comes down to actually talking to girls i go to pieces, lol.

anyway. I am here to see what I can learn, maybe get the group support to start getting out there and trying some of this stuff out.

Ive read a lot about PUA tactics. After youve read a few books and listend to a few CD's it begins to repeat itself. I feel like I must already know everything I have to do, but when it comes time to pull the trigger I revert back to a lonely college kid who doesn't have any friends. I suppose that is what i am basically.... but I think I can fake it till I make it.

TL;DR : What does it matter. I'm here to talk about who I want to Become, not who I was. A person is not their past. A person is not their mistakes.

I look forward to lurking a bit and getting involved here. It's time to change.

see you around

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