| Are you guys ready to laugh? I might just be the most beta male ever...
I turned 22 this week, and it was quite a sad occasion, I got to thinking about my life and my future etc, and my current situation. I have 0 exp with girls. Like, literally. I've been kissed once and that didn't even count because the girl I kissed was extremely drunk at a party and probably didn't give a shit who it was kissing her haha. I'm a virgin. Heck, I've never been on a date, held hands with a girl, done any of that stuff, no girl has EVER shown interest in me outside friendship
Now, I guess that makes me an AFC. I am a little overweight, quite self conscious about it and I don't feel attractive. Thing is, I exert a lot of confidence. I know this sounds counterintuitive, but I like to tell jokes, make people laugh, be center of attention at parties and social functions, and I usually am. I come across as having good self esteem and comfortable in my skin, even if in the back of my mind I think I look dumb/feel dumb. I guess It's just an act! But I pulled it off my whole life and it's genuine. I've just never had balls to talk to girls or even try, since I think I'm quite an ugly dude, I don't know what to say to 'em, I don't try, not because of fear of rejection, because I know from the get go no one would be interested...(I spose that is fear of rejection?)
I want to turn this around. I've been working on my image, lost a little weight and will continue to, I have good fashion sense and look after myself. Thing is, I don't really have an exciting life :/ I'm currently unemployed, don't have many social connections, I don't have high value at all, but I know that I could? I feel like I'm always going to be a beta male but I want to change, I have no idea how to DHV to girls if I am not high value? I have some alpha characteristics in my personality I suppose, my body language, speech, etc. I guess I joined this forum for some tips and ideas and discussions on the topic?
Also, in the last while I met a girl online randomly and we got talking, she's realllly attractive and she's told me that she likes me and would like to meet. I don't have any idea why she'd like me because I'm ugly, but I've never been on a date and don't have a clue what to do on a date, what goes and what doesn't, shud I DHV to her? But how? But if she likes me already, isn't this pointless? :S, I'm just lost, I don't want to go on a date with her and then fuck it all up without arming myself first, maybe she is WAYYYY out of my league but she says I make her laugh and she loves talking to me so who knows!
Anyway, thanks for reading, sorry for huge post
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