Misleading topic, might as well read anyway since you're here

Hey, I'm 19 really excited to start improving and enhancing my outcome with women, I've had oneitis issues probably since i was 14, I've always had a key picture of this one girl I thought i "loved" just because she rejected me, because of my perceived value of her.

I look back after reading a lot of information and see all the things i did wrong, and all the things I've done right.

I've always seemed to attract women i wasn't into. Even my one friend who is now a stripper, i turned down and avoided.

I never quite understood social situations, and intuition as much as i should have. I just figured if people were laughing or liked me i was doing a good job, so i would get depressed if i didn't get that attention i thought i deserved, then i ended up spending a year - 2 years alone playing gay shit like runescape which i didn't even like. i just sat home feeling sorry for myself and built a barrier from me and society. I have had sex since then, and a few things with other women, but i am too picky and the women i want, don't perceive me with as much value as i need them to, to attract them.

I've recently been flaked by someone who i was trying to date, who was unnnnnder my league, i mean cute, but like nerdy weird, like wears a turtle backpack to school and watches weird nerdy tv shows i had to pretend to like. and i felt so depressed about myself that i threw myself so low i had sexual relations (not sex) with an chubber, a reverse butterface. (just made that up, please don't quote that or use that unless you want to embarrass yourself)



I want everyone to post their stories under here, and tell them the direct reason why you drew the line to change.

I DONT WANT ANYONE GIVING ADVICE, This is a level headed open forum. i want people to talk about their issues, instead of some person who is just textbook smart and has no real idea how to use this shit.