| Hey all,
Probably should've done this the moment I signed up for the sight, but was quite busy in a bunch of different ways. Now that I've had a chance to relax some, as well as get thoughts together I can probably introduce myself finally.
Basically in my mid twenties, average to sort of fit build and have been told I'm rather good looking and a great guy to be around. In a way you'd think those qualities might mean something. However, apparently, as I've just recently come to realize in the past couple years unfortunately, I've always been somewhat oblivious when it's come to seeing that someone's shown interest in me. Whether it's not even reading the signs as actual interests to even being just to infatuated with someone else to notice (though I have been definitely working on remedying this no matter who it is). I somehow have the tendency to attract the wrong women as well. These can range from ones that I have absolutely no attraction to/interest in through, which tends to be more of the majority, ones that are completely off limits. Had the capability of being attached a few times if that hadn't been the case. Even had the last few of my best buddy's girls try to get with me. One managed all the way and the other, which I probably would've preferred, got partially there before I woke up and realized what was going on. Especially since I didn't want to f up anything worse that I already had with our more than a decade long friendship.
But I digress, I know I have the capability of being with quite a high set of 'clientele' if you will, the high class, the premium tables, etc. It basically comes down to the fact I'm basically, as my title states, Ipkiss Incarnate. I'm pretty close to being the actual true 'Stanley Ipkiss' portrayed by Jim Carrey in the Mask. Yeah, I know cheesy reference, but could also go with the whole Green Day's 'Nice Guys Finish Last' as a theme song. I somehow have that aura around me that people think I'm a such a nice guy that I can be walked all over for nothing. Whether it's the ladies, the Alpha's, the AFC's or the random person on the street lookin for a friggin handout. I've been the guy who wants to help out others whether I know them well first hand or not, but that doesn't mean I'll always have the ability to do so. In ways, I'm basically looking to try and change this. Well at least to a point. I'm not looking for a completely perosnality reversal, go from the great nice guy to the completely and utter prick. Just a nice in between, ways to come off as someone that can't be walked all over but isn't the person who's going to knock someone down for the slightest request of a simple gesture either. Cause I know that's just not who I am or even was raised as.
Just need to find myself in a way that I can do well in all regards, whether it's chasing a bit of tail, actually finding miss right, or hell even for use in everday life, whether it be personal or business. After having seen some ways of this 'underground-ish' community, I figured there chance that I can learn a few things to at least head in such a direction. Especially now, having moved out to the LA area awhile back to see about a change of pace and then now being off on a couple month business trip to the UK.
Anyone have comments or suggestions they'd be greatly appreciated, especially with the fact I'm kind of out of my element whether in LA or now in an almost completely different culture, or at least it seams.
-Z
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