hey guys.
ok i certainly have my eye on someone (rach) but it's not quite as straight forward as that. i'll fill you in....
Background>>
i've known rach for about 10 months. She is 16 and appears to be relatively mature for her age. I'm 18. About 2 months ago, she started going out with my mate (aidan). Prior to this, my mate had something going on with another girl, but it didn't work out, so he opted for rach. To everyone, the relationship seemed like a shock, because nobody saw it coming. I think it's also fair to say that a lot of the time, rach and her bf are not overly close. Aidan doesn't feel wanted a lot of the time.
Now, i've helped rach out loads with aidan, i've offered her lots of advice when shes needed support and offered myself to help her out. About a month ago, I spoke to rach at a party, and got very emotional and yes very pissed. I told her, that I thought she was 'amazing' - my exact words. Her response was that she walked off with no words because her car had arrived and i did tell her to just turn around once i'd told her it..and so she did..
Time passed, and her and aidan are still together. Recently, aidan talked to me about how flirty i can be with rach and apparently he was concerned about me and rach because he had asked another mate of rach if he thought there was anything going on. I told him no.. They seem ok as far as i'm aware at the moment. Yet, at the same time, myself and rach i feel have gotten closer. We are much more friendly over msn at the moment. I think she feels comfortable around me. She calls me little names and I call her little nicknames back. i think im teasing her a little bit and am trying to remain a mysterious person. If im honest, i think she is fond of me - w/e that means to you. When i stop talking on msn for 5 mins, she sends a smiley or something, or at least questions if im alright..small things i know, but they count. what i find a bit intrueging is that she has told me a few times over the past 4 weeks or so, that she loves me. i have no idea whether this is just 'friend love' or something more. it might be friendship love..i just dont know. i just do know that we are pretty much best mates..this is a fact..and we are generally close. Going back to what i said to her at that party...she has even felt comfortable talking to me about it over the phone, yet she didn't offer her opinion on what i said...she just popped it up one time on the phone. She knows i have been hurt before badly from a girl..so maybe she is trying to not hurt me again?? :/ no idea.
Heres the good part >> her bf is going to leeds Uni in september, whereas im going to brighton (and will be able to visit home a lot of the time because its only 30 mins from my house), whereas aidan wont be home that often..probably every couple of months! this is, (i feel) my chance to act.
should i continue some negging with her? maybe not present myself fully to her over msn..yet rather try and make her contact me? (which she has done before).
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