hello, this is my first post on this forum
i would really appreciate it if someone with experience would read this because this is a one year problem and i swear it eats 2-3 hours a day, stress and shit
the problem:
i've met a girl one year ago through a friend
she is gorgeus, same age as me ( 20 )
we kinda hit it off, me joking she laughing so on so on, then i've found out she broke up with her boyfriend so i asked her something like this: if i would ask u sometime will u go out with me? and she said : yes, but it must be official
next day i saw her with another guy that had a car and i chickened out, i thought that they are together and i can't match with him
a year passes with us not talkin...now i've met with her again
she still had a boyfriend and she invited me to come with her to a dance class cause she knew i did this type of dance before and she could be more relaxed with me....i accepted
she started flirting with me everytime, smilling everytime, things like that, one night in the club i was feeling a bit sick and she came to me see what's wrong and a friend interrupted us, then something curious happened : she told him to leave ( words: dude go away, don't u see we have a moment here? )...he leaves...and i tell her, what moment? there is no moment, and she looks me and says, do u wanna make one? **********me blacking out****** she leaves, then i realize
one thing i didn't understand was that one time, when i brought her home, we walked, went shopping and she tells me something about her bf sleeping at her that night, i make a strange face...and she says: hey, we didnt do anything....( yea right, it was a 3 years relationship and she didnt make sex.....) i didn't understand why she told me that...
she was always trying to flirt with me or do things like that, kissing my cheek, ear, brush my hair, cause i didnt give her much attention
eventually she brokes up with her bf at that time, and i asked her what i am for her, and that i want more from our relationship, all the signs were good......but she said it is too early, she just broke up with that guy....
i thought to myself ok, i will wait
things get out of hand when i see a guy flirting with her and she enjoyed it, i had an argue with her, about using me to get to places and shit like that ( shit that was true...but i was too happy to be around her to care ) and we closed the relation
now i started talking to her again, she acted like it never happened and guess what...i asked her out and she said yes, ok, i cancelled the date on 3 days to see if she is willing to accept my crap, and she was....after that i found out that she has a bf
i asked her why she didnt tell me, and she said she doesnt know why...they are arguing most of the time anyway ( those were her words ), so i thought hey, she wants me
i went swimming with her, again flirting and stuff like that, she even changed underwear in the same cabine as me...
one day as we were heading for the swimming pool she gets a call, and tells her friend that she broke up with her bf and she never gets back with him ( eventually i found out the reason: they argued because she came very late home after a night spent with me ) she wasnt talking as she would hide this information from me, so i made plans and stuff to arrange a dinner and a date
plans failed because she didnt answer the phone for one whole day...ok...then i told her, tomorow dont make plans....she says ok
tomorrow comes...i made new reservations and guess what...she calls me with one hour left till we had to meet and says she has to go with a friend to meet her bf and then go to play pool ( yea she got back with him ), i argued with her because she went over our plans again and i broke the relation again
now i am somehow missing her...and dunno what to do, she is too proud to apologize
was she playing with me all the time or there was something there?