Ok theres this girl that I work with that I kinda had a crush on but never made a move, well Im a fucking AFC. Shes a HB10, blond, eastern european ancestry, very smart and probably the sweetest and most sincere girl i've ever met. Naturally every guy in the office in love with this girl but don't seem to do anything about it. My boss the alpha male, tall, naturally good looking and confident attempted to charm her but she put him in the friend zone so fast he didn't know what hit him. Since starting the game I was able f-close 3 times, a HB7 and two HB8 and yet I still consider my self an AFC and will probably for a while. But nothing could prepare me for a 10 like this one. Every time I see her I always pretend to be going somewhere or try to look busy so that she doesn't notice me and put me in the same category as the drooling idiots in my office, I pretend to be completely oblivious to her looks and its killing me inside I seriously want to tell her how I feel but I know that I will lose her forever. As far as Im concerned I am still in the game, Im still a stranger who hasn't approached her and fucked it up completely. So I go out sarging for a little bit with some successes a couple of numbers and a couple of kisses, but I keep thinking about this girl. I couldn't take it anymore so i decide to go home and re-read Mystery method for the 20th time, and formulate a plan to talk to her the next day.
Its Wednessday morning and I get to work early because I feel like im a head of the game when ever I get some where early. Very few people are here but I notice she also got here early and is at her desk getting things ready. I go to the break room to get some coffee and she follows me in there. She talks to me first but Im assuming she's probably bored since there are only 5 people here this time in the morning.
HB10: Hi *smile*
fatass: Hi
HB10: you always get here this early?
fatass: I read in Fortune magazine that 85% the top CEO of big corporations all get up before 5 A.M
HB10: Wow... thats quite ambitious of you, you seem like someone who takes a lot of pride in his work.
fatass: I love my job and can't wait to start...*smile* (serious sarcasm, Im just an intern here which means i make minimum wage and im anyones bitch and to top it off my boss is a good looking douchebag)
HB10: haha, is that sarcasm i hear?
fatass: you're in accounting, im not getting you coffee*straightface*
HB10: haha fine then, so where do you go to school?
fatass: [school name] blah blah
HB10: wow, how do you ever get any work done with all that partying?
fatass: Do you have a line of communication with my mother?
HB10: You're mom does not approve of such behavior
fatass: Im a goodboy 75% of the time
HB10: What about the other 25%?
fatass: I don't know you well enough yet, can I trust you with such information?
HB10: yes you can!
fatass: hmm... I don't know
everyones arriving and I start to walk away
HB10: tell me, heres my # text me sometime during the day, I get so bored by myself over there
fatass: you're unbelievable, texting when you are supposed to be working, Ill tell my boss and he's gonna come over there and punish you for being such a bad girl
HB10: oh please don't
fatass: oh come on he's perfect for you in a about a few weeks you guys will be dating and then ill probably walk in on you guys making out
in the break room.
HB10: Oh stop it! He's a good looking guy but he tries to hard sometimes and its kinda of a turn off
fatass: He does have a nice body though, probably overcompensating for something
HB10: I'll tell him you said that haha
fatass: then you'll have to talk to him haha
HB10: Damnit haha
3 hours later I get a text
HB10: so Mr. Mystery whats your darkside? <-- exact words, should've responded Mr. Mystery is my father, call me [real name] haha
fatass: the force is sketchy with this one
HB10: fine you meanie
fatass:
HB10: you keeping secrets from me is affecting my performance
fatass: oh no!
HB10: what?
fatass: you're starting to sound like my mother, now I don't think this is gonna work out between us
HB10: because I care about you? whatever it was that was going on between us would it have been enough for you to tell me?
fatass :*ignore*
HB10: jerk
fatass:*ignore*
4 hours later
HB10: Im gonna go get some lunch you can come along
fatass: in exchange for my company you can buy me a club sandwich
HB10: grrr fine
Note: I didn't make her buy me a sandwich
We sit on a bench in a park nearby, during lunch we talked about our childhoods, and our dreams. I find out she's got 4 brothers and 3 sisters still living in Iowa, her parents emigrated from Ukraine when she was 6 and how she dreamed of being an actress and shes been in every single play in high school. I told her how my friends used to make fun of me in high school for participating in plays. Then I decided that we should quit our jobs and persue a career in acting, i told her there are plenty of roles requiring an fat person and so few roles open for pretty girls like her since hollywood is full of beautiful people. And told her that I would then have to quit work and take care of her and our 8 kids while she is pregnant with number 9. She says im the most interesting guy she's ever met, I wanted to tell her that I've been in love with her for the past 4 months and quit all the game,c/f, pushpull, negging shit. But I can't Im not willing to lose her. She begins to give me the dinner doggy bowl look, I start to play with her hair, then I sniff her hair I tell her she smells sexy, i massage her neck, she looks into my eyes I know I can go for the kiss. I hesitate, and then talked my self out of it. We get back to the elevator and I run out of things to say, and its awkward. We get back to work and she tells me that she'd have a great time. My biggest fear now is that I LJBFed my self by not going for the kiss and making my self looking like a wuss. Any advice appreciated, please tell me if there is still hope