There was a girl. We had ourselves on Facebook for some time. We were
bumping at each other on various parties, but I was never really
noticing her. Like, literally, she was the first to say hello quite
often, since I was not spotting her in the crowd. For whatever
reasons many people were hitting on her but I was never, since she
seemed like not my type. She was really hot but not much of my type
and I did not feel any connection with her, which is important factor
to me.

I have a pretty laid back attitude and do not like wasting time, if I hit
someone and it is not working out I simply move further. I am not a
chaser but also not accustomed to people chasing me, so that was quite
cool, I was impressed that she actually put effort into this.

As I mentioned before, I have access to lots of women on daily
basis, so there was no pressure, I figured out that if it ends as a
one night stand this is cool, if it starts to get serious thats fine
too and if nothing comes out of this or we just become friends than it
is also good. The evening ended early since I was quite tired, she was
like "we should meet again, but on an evening on which you have more
time".
And indeed couple of days later we did. I was about to get home from a
bar and I have texted her. She was at some other bar too with her
female friend and she accidentally met her ex and she was really angry
with the all evening. I texted some stuff about my place and she was
like "I am staying at your place tonight". So she did, we had some
talk, some flirting and I figured out that I would give it ago, but
whenever I was attempting something she seemed uncomfortable with it.
It was quite weird to me, becaue she seemed interested and actually
she was the one that created the whole situation. I am not a chaser,
but when I have already made up my mind to do something with someone
and we are in situation like that (no matter who initiated it) it
usually goes effortlessly and she was like flirting, allowing light
touching and some escalaation, but on the other hand from time to time
she was giving what seemed to be genuine "no" signals. I was trying to
slowly warm her up and at some point I kissed her. She was not
expecting this, her initial reaction was not to follow this but then
after some more time spent cuddling and me making sure that she is OK
with this and that it is not happening against her will, we just did
it. And it was worth it! Seriously, the sex was amazing, way better
than expected. And after sex we talked even more, even some private
stuff, and then there was even more sex. Literally, I was not
expecting that it will be that good. We had it multiple times and for
a really long time but almost all the time she was avoid kissing,
while being open to many other things, both letting me take initiavie
and taking it by herself. I do not recall myself having bad breath or
anything like that, so perhaps this is some clue to what is happening
here (I do not know, maybe some girls find kissing more personal that
regular sex?). Also, perhaps I should note that she was way younger
than me and despite having nice connection I do not think anyone here
was thinking about the situation seriously, with a long term
perspective. This might be important to the rest of the story. Also, I
was her first guy since like many weeks/months.

Anyway, the next day I made sure we are good, said goodbye to each
other and we went our ways. Some time later we had some small talk on
Facebook and she seemed to have regrets. I wanted to make sure, that
everything is fine, so was in for a follow up meeting. And really, I
did not care if it is a regular meeting on another one night stand. At
this point I was already thinking about the other girl that was on the
backburner, but the one that I had just spent the night with impressed
me both intellectually and sexually, so I wanted to remain on good
terms with her and be open to anything. I have suggested a meeting,
she was very open to this, but then there were some sync issues
(noones fault) and we need to reschedule and then we had to reschedule
couple of more times (this time definitely her fault). OK, I am not
accustomed to this bullshit, I usually either meet someone or do not
and if someone reschedules or forgets we were about to figure out
details of a meeting I simply move to the next person. But I did not
do anything like that here, since I really started to value her as a
person and thought we had quite a nice connection that evening,
talking honestly about everything, so there was no room for games etc.
Perhaps this is where I made my biggest mistake. Pushing for it
multiple times and then stating that I do not have time for
rescheduling all the time might look needy or might have scared her
into thinking that I am treating this too seriously.

But the thing is I was not. I was already scheduling an evening with
someone else. It did not end with sex, but I have decided to use this
as a way to figure out what the initial girl is thinking. So I did not
make any secret of that second girl and was trying to figure out how
the first one feels about me being with someone else. Perhaps that
could be something that would refuel her interest in me (undersating I
am not desperate after all and we can continue to have sex without it
getting to serious) or the opposite (she will get angry that I am
interested in other girls). Anyway, since noone explicitly stated that
there will be another night together (although it was implied) and we
definitely have not forbidden each other to meet other people, I
thought that should not be an issue. And I do not know, maybe this was
another mistake on my behalf or maybe it was good. Couple of days
later we started to chat and flirt once again. I am not a talkative
person on social media, so it was not much but it was rather intense
and some more sexual action was strongly implied. Then I was busy for
couple of days. Both with some regular stuff and with matters
regarding some other girls. And then we have spontaneusly met for a
brief moment (we figured out we are at the same area at the same
time). She strongly implied that it will be really cool to meet for a
whole evening very soon, she even suggested the next day, but only if
some other plans do not happen. Since I would not like to be someone's
second option and backup plan, I immediatelly suggested that nope, the
next might be OK, but there is something else I would rather to then
(and indeed I had another option there too), so I suggested that
perhaps next week will be better. She seemed a bit surprised but said
OK. Next week is all good except of one day.

I was curious about that day, which happend to be exactly one week
later. And then, during that particular conversation, I have figured
out that she is checking out (dating?) a guy who is having night
shifts at that time. Perhaps this is another mistake I have made. I
should have kept this to myself and not confront her about it and just
continue our flirting and enjoy they ride wherever it was heading. But
I was genuinelly pissed, because I no longer considered her just
another one night stand girl like many I had before, but a one night
stand girl that I could become friends with, that I could continue to
fuck as friends with benefits or perhaps even as someone whom I would
be willing to try something more serious. In other words, I was open
to literally anything - as long as there are no games and there is
mutual respect and we can continue to freely talk about anything. It
might sound naive, but I have been in similar arrangements before.
Anyway, some other guy was not an issue to me, because why would he, I
was about to meet other girls. I was just pissed that she was making
such a big deal of it that she wanted to keep it a secret and was
caught on it red handed. (Well, the guy is in worse situation since
while being interested in him for at least couple of weeks, she was
flirting with me all the time).
I tried to play it cool, but perhaps I failed. I even asked her if it
means that there won't be any other night after all (which was stupid
thing to say, because it might have looked like she had to chose
between me and him, while I would be happy to continue fucking her and
literally do not care about other guys as long as she does not
interfere with me chasing other girls).

We ended the conversation with her looking forward to our next meeting
soon and me playfully warning her, that if indeed we meet next time I
am planning to fuck her really hard, which was quite random but at
least truthful. She seemed a bit intimidated and impressed by that at
the same time, but since then she did not get back to me and I do not
feel like I should be the one suggesting the meeting (correct me if I
am wrong). Did some playful small talk immediately after that
conversation but it was rather ignored and she went MIA (she used to
flood my Facebook with likes but then she stopped although couple days
later she liked one particular thing again). Anyway, I think I have
fucked up that situation and have several questions. I have already
moved to one of the other girls, but if there is possibility of fixing
this now or in the future, I am open to this, and even if it is
impossible, I would be happy to learn from my mistakes.