You make it sound like you have a good life already...So the only way is up, right?

This confirms my previous suspicions that you just simply sabotage yourself. The best things in life are not easy to come by.

It's mindsets like yours, that makes me so excited about my future because I can not be less than average. With anything.

Dragula,

I was just thinking about adding this to the end of my post: "Dragula was right, I purposely sabotage myself"

what do you mean by "good life"? i am relatively healthy, i am not homeless, i dont go to bed hungry, so i guess?

what do you mean "the only way is up"? i dont see your logic. when a ball is thrown and it's at the highest point, the only way is down. so why does a good life mean the only a way is up? when your life is good, the only way is down, no?

So you currently enjoy your life?

It is a subjective topic, but to me, being a virgin with a dead end job seems like a bad thing (To me) - There is a reason you're on this forum, right? But if you are truly happy with your current life, then fair enough, there is no need to be frustrated on a forum, is there?

no, i dont enjoy my life, when did i ever say that? you're the one who said i have a good life.

Where and when did I say that?

I don't get it Bartm, you just contradicted yourself from your last post...

So you hate life but you're just tolerating it till you die, is that what you're saying?

if i dont enjoy it, when life's over it's not going to suck because it wasn't enjoyable. so I make sure I dont enjoy it.

No I said 'You make it SOUND like you have a good life' (I was stating that you do not have a good life)
Anyway, you don't wanna help yourself, so you might as well leave the forum, right? Why are you here?

bottom line: I refuse to enjoy life because when life's over, that's going to suck.
if i dont enjoy it, when life's over it's not going to suck because it wasn't enjoyable. so I make sure I dont enjoy it.

With that mentality, life's already over for you before it even began. While you're over there worrying about life sucking, the rest of us are investing in ourselves / improving our lives. Yes, we've all been in adverse situations where we've felt heartbroken and destroyed afterwards. Hell, I'm going through one right now. But it's how you grow. Your life starts outside your comfort zone. The reason you're not seeing progress is because there is too much inertia -- it takes way too much mental energy to get you to leave your comfort zone. Change your mindset.

You're interesting. What's the point of posting here then?

you know, a few years ago, I was a premed student at university, I took all the required courses for medical school and I even took the medical school entrance exam and got an acceptable score which could have gotten me into an ok school. But every year, I kept postponing to the next year. I asked someone in real life "How do I know if I want to be a doctor? it's so hard to make a decision"
he said "if you wanted it, you would have already applied, gotten in, and finished. you don't want it"
I thought "OMG he is right!!"

same shit applies here, I just don't want it, man. if I wanted it, I would have done it by now.