Yesterday was the day when I realised that I want to be really good with women.
Me and my best friend were working at the pub.. it is not a permanent job, we just come when they need us for 1-2 days once a 2 weeks. I am still on high school and I am 18 years old. So we were working and lots of young people came to celebrate their end of high school, which means lots of hot chicks came.
I had small talk with a few of them, but nothing more, I could make them laugh, but I couldnt go further.. I just couldnt use nothing what I learnt or read about pick-uping.. I dont know how to use it.. There was 1 girl that I wanted to be with, but I just didnt know how to get her (actually there was like 10 chicks I would want to be with in that moment, but they just seemd too hot to be with me.. So we talked for some time with that one I chose, but nothing happend at the end. It was also because I worked, but I dont want to make any excuses..
Now the best part!
.. There is this girl I know for few months and we HAD kind of special relationship. Every time we were together, we were making out and when there was opportunity, we also had sex. The special thing about it was that we never talked about it, but I could see sometimes that she has a crush on me, and I also had it until yesterday.She came to the pub with her classmates, pretty drunk. I mean that kind of LETS DRINK, ITS ON ME drunkness
.. I was behind the bar, and she came to me, touched me alot and often, but I just couldnt kiss her.. I didnt want to because there was also her ex-boyfriend. I really didnt want him to see that, because I heard he had some hard times after that breakup (I dont know that guy well).So I was just cleaning the glasses and WTF do my eyes see?? Her making out with her ex.. the one I felt sorry for.. At the end I was the poor boy who failed so hardly.. I didnt know what the fuck to think.. That was really bad to see and I was so angry inside me (hiding it). The good thing is that I kind of dont care anymore today. (I guess we are just using ourselves for pleasure). This thing just really lowered my self confidence and self everything..
At least I feel better when I wrote it all to somebody. Please tell me what you think and if you have some useful tips, which I can use next time I see a girl I like, I would be so grateful for that:) . Thanks guys
