Hey,
I'm a 22 old guy, I do my studies regularly, I'm at least avarage good looking, I'm a singer, have 5 concerts this month... point is, I have hobbies, I'm doing quite ok.
But there is this girl. I've met her 3 months ago in a bar. She went back to my place that night, but we didn't have sex. We did next time we met, after texting every day for cca 4-5 days. We were both into each other. She was really interested, she liked my eyes, my mimics, my voice and I liked her too, cause she was cute and hot at the same time. Still is.
But the problem was that she just got out of a 1 year relationship and before that she had a 4 year relationship. The next month we had sex a lot, we texted EVERY day, she texted even more than I did. But she was always saying that she doesn't want anything serious, because she needs time. But they way she acted... she was calling me every night she went out, every time she was drunk, she told me several times she misses me, everything was looking like she means business. She left her friends' place at midnight just to meet with me. She came drunk to my place, just because she could. So, she was both yes and no. I hated that. We had kind of a strange relationship, it looked like a legit relationship, but there was always this "it's not gonna last" in the air.
So one day texting just "faded away" a bit and when I said it is strange, she said yes, but this is bad cause this should be normal. And then things started getting cold. We tried to text, fuck and see each other a bit less, but we went way too far, we almost didn't text at all. After a week of this shit, I said that I don't like that at all, she said that she neither, but she has to try to be free. I already liked her too much not to care.
I hoped that she was gonna miss me and we were gonna get back together. We even agreed that we could fuck once in a while, but she always postponed that, so I stopped, cause I didn't want to be needy. I actually wanted to see her more than fuck her... She said that she would write when she would feel ready. But she didn't. So the next month was just nothing. Later she said that she wanted to write but her friends wouldn't let her at first and later she just feeled ashamed to write me. I even wrote a fuckin song for her, how pathetic am I... She came to a concert and I sang it. My friends said that the whole concert she was staring at me with her puppy eyes. One friend even said "Right now, she's your property man. She's reeeeeaaly wet". Also druing that time we met twice on a party and she still looked interested and we kissed both nights. But next day, no texting and such. Recently she even said we should watch a movie together and when I said ok, when, she postponed it again.
Today I met her outside again with her friends. We hanged out for an hour, we didn't kiss, but she was all over me. All the feelings came back, I miss her, can't get her out of my mind, can't sleep today. We were "together" just for a month and now after 2 months, I still miss her. Jesus christ... I'm emotionally tired. I guess you're gonna say "go fuck other girls" but I just can't find the will to do it. Actually I fucked 2 girls in these 2 months, but it didn't help shit.
It's impossible to caputre all the story and emotions in a post to get a full picutre, but still, what do you say?
Thanks
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