I realize that I've got two internal blocks that are keeping me from picking up women. They are the things that go through my mind when I see a woman that I think is cute, and they are what stop me from talking with them. I don't think this is the fear of rejection because I thrive on rejection and failure. Those are things I can overcome and correct.

My first block is that I have some sort of guilt or feeling that the whole process is dirty. I know it's not. I keep telling myself that women get just as much out of it as I do, but it's like I'm taking advantage. I feel like the act involves lots of things, and I don't want to do some of those things, so the idea of leading a person on just seems wrong. I'm not sure I want to date women. The amount of work that a relationship takes just seems like it would waste a lot of my time, which is a really stupid thought because I've spent the last six hours pretty much doing a whole lot of nothing - nothing that I would be more than happy to do with somebody else. I have no idea why I feel this way. It might be because I've seen friends who suddenly get into relationships and then disappear. Some different points of view might really help me here guys.

The second thing is that, particularly when I'm out with friends, I don't want them to see me as some sort of creep. I don't want the girl to feel that way, and I don't want my friends to see me as some sort of womaniser. It might be because of my selection of friends. They're actually the ones who told me about the game, but they don't practice it. My one friend is pretty annoying because he seems to have natural luck with attracting women. He's not really good at elevating things, but that's not really important to the discussion. Still, my group of friends isn't the type to want to go out just to meet women, and although that seems like it would be a really impressive talent that they would envy, it's not something that I want to practice in front of them. So I've really got no one to support me on this, which, given my fear of other people seeing me getting rejected, I might not want to pick up with other people around, at least until I get the hang of it. I'm not sure if you guys can really help with this one, but it's certainly something that's stopping me from going out.