Please just answer this as a person not as a robot objective pua.
I met a girl in college first year. I was really shy and therefore I couldnt be bold enough to make a big slash but I often did have enough courage to talk to her and stuff. Anyhow I found out that she has a boyfriend after a few months.
Then a few more months I found out she hooked up with this douchiest guy ever.
I would have just forgotten about her except:
- she is the only girl that I know of that I am interested in (onesied)
- she is very beautiful
- first girl to text and flirt with
- she gives me IOIs out the wazoo tons of times but then she often doesnt come up and talk to me and she ignores me in class (sits with her group of friends and stuff) Im not sure if she is ignoring me or shy
- what Im holding on to is there were so many times when she was like almost begging for me to talk to her and giving me tons of IOIs
- but Im just disgusted by all this as she hooked up with this disgusting low quality guy. I dont know what to make of all this
We dont seem to get along well enough to carry the conversation for too long and we arent really friends. She also seems to not care much as I blocked her on facebook and stuff and she didnt seem to notice and she was planning to move to another dorm next year and she did. I havent talked to her in months yet I still think about her.
I should have just forgotten about this a whole long time ago and dumped her as a prospective but I guess its because she is good looking and at times she shows a lot of interest in me. But I am just so mad at her behavior like she doesnt care sometimes as she hooked up with this guy and its like Ive been played for a fool all this time while shes with other guys but then again I was never bold enough to hang around her for too long nor did she ask me too.
I know. all the signs say this is stupid and its a toxic relationship and way of thinking yet I cant get away. I guess its because I have a very high standard for girls and because I am bad socially at school I barely have friends or chances to meet girls so Im onesied with this stupid girl I blocked months ago on Facebook who I havent talked to for months but she is all Ive ever known.
p.s. I tried joining clubs and making friends at dorm, etc. Nothing works for me. Still alone.