Hey guys, havent been on here in a while. PLEASE TAKE THE TIME TO SKIM OVER THIS, I KNOW ITS LONG BUT I NEED YOUR HELP.
Here's the story: I sent a girl from my highschool a love letter when I was drunk on facebook. (yeah I know, I'm a total AFC for doing that)
She messaged back and said "I like this"
and eventually asked me to teach her how to play guitar sometime. ( cause she knows I play guitar)
Then everyone once in a while we would chat on facebook.
but at school I never talked to her, cause I felt too fucking nervous
This is girl is a year older than me and she's the hottest girl in my school. Not only in my opinion... its what every guy in my school thinks.
Once she stayed up talking to me till 3 am (on facebook) and she said she was supposed to be writing a 15 page essay but got distracted because of something I said.
After 2 weeks, when school was finally over I went with 2girls and 2 of my buddies to a bonfire hangout just to chill. She was there too. However, I was too nervous to come up and say anything to her. Nevertheless I managed to hit on like 4 other girls there. And I had noticed that she saw me hugging one of the girls I was hitting on there.
So during the next day I felt compelled to call her. (I had her number because I texted her previously about teaching her guitar) I called 4 times and she never answered.
That night, I went to another bonfire. As I was walking there I was drunk. When I was getting close to the place a crowd was walking back. Everyone was leaving. It was too dark to see anything. So as I was passing a small group of 5, some girl said "Val? Is that you?" I didn’t stop and kept of walking down and replied "Yeah, thats me". She said "Val come here!". I replied "Why?" as I kept on getting further from her. She scram "Val, come up here now!" I replied "I can't" (I was drunk haha). Then I walked towards the bonfire, still was pretty far away, following a trail. Then someone called me on my phone and said "the cops are here". Although I was drunk I still new that it was best to head back. So I started running back. As I came back up I noticed a group of 5. And the HB I liked was there. She noticed me and said: Val! I was calling you, why didnt you come back?" I said "sorry haha I was looking for a friend" She said “haha, alright, why did you call me so many times?” as she hugged me. I replied “haha I don’t remember”. Then a buddy of mine called me cause he was gonna give me a ride home. So I said bye and left.
The day after that another bonfire happened. She was there as well. But this time I was a little drunk and I tried weed for the first time. I ended up making out with some other girl there. I told a drunken friend that I made out with some chick, and he told everyone at the party. She eventually heard it. I did not speak to her but when I was in talking to people beside her she had a pissed look on her face and moved away from the group, closer to the bonfire.
So the next day I texted her and said: “hey I’m gonna assume you think I’m a whore and a druggy. That’s true. But I am a different person during the daytime. Then, I am a guitar teacher. So if you’re still interested in guitar give me a shot”.
I didn’t hear from her that day and the next day (today) I just texted her the following “Hey reply if you get this message. Just checking to see if you were real or just a figment of my imagination
” She hasn’t replied yet. Any suggestions on what to do now? I really like this girl, she’s a 9.5 almost perfect, and I think I fucked up badly. When giving advice keep in mind I’m in highschool. THANK YOU!!!