So, I have what seems like (to me, at least) the most frustrating sticking point in the world. I can't kiss a girl on the lips (with or without tongue). These past few weeks (the weeks ending up my senior year of hs) have been filled, FILLED, with perfect opportunities for me to kiss/make out with a couple different girls and I didn't take up ANY of them. Thanks to all the pua material I've studied up on I am one of the most sought after guys in my hs, everygirl wants me, everyguy wants to be me (not kidding, guys literally tell me they wish they were me all the time lol). The girls all think I'm a HUGE player and a manslut, the guys all expect me to have gotten with hundreds of girls. I've helped the image carry itself on by always saying that I keep my girls out of school and do my best to make sure no one knows them. However, in reality I've never been with, much less kissed a girl. I've taken thre material as I've supposed to, master one step at a time, and so I've done my best to master every step up till the kclose and so that's where most people get the vibe of congruency from me and my image. I don't care what these people think I just want to kclose a girl (one that I like, I'm not for the whole player thing, I learned pu so that I can get a girl who is everything I want).
for example, tonight this hb10(she's a professional model) had me over her house with another guy friend (he has a gf, hb10 and him r just good friends) and we all went out to eat. Hb10 and I sat with each other in the back seat holding hands and sat with each other at dinner. She called me her bf I called her my gf all night. We shared one cup of ice cream and were feeding each other. We then went back to her house and watched a movie in her movie theater (yeah, she's obscenely rich) and me and her sat in one of the seats together (its one of those elather home theater seats so u can get an idea of how close we were) for a while. Then the guy left and it was just us two, we layed next to each other and talked for an hour, I told her I had to leave at 12 and at 1150 I said I should get going, but she insisted I be with her the 10mins longer. And yet with all the opportunities(I even did the david deangelo stroke the bottom of her hair and look into her eyes thing), even the slow hug at the front door as I left, I nvr worked up the balls to move in for the close.
Another example, I drove to this hb9s house in the afternoon, she got in my car, I asked her to prom and we talked for an hour and a half in my car, she literally sat sideways in the passenger seat just to face me. We TALKED so much the car windows fogged up, they fogged from fucking TALKING. And even then I didn't kclose. About three days earlier then that I took her out for lunch, then I drove her to a harbor and parkd the car and asked what she wanted to do, she said "we could just do it in ur car". I laughed it off and then we took an hour long walk down the beach. On the ride home after we held hands, interlocking finers for 25mins, and at one point she put my hand on her tit so I could feel her "pulse" and STILL I didn't kclose.
What the hell guys, I'm so frustrated I literally wna punch a whole through the wall. I need some help ASAP, I need to break through this barrier (especially with prom coming up), I'm getting so annoyed and upset at myself its ruining my self confidence and evrything. PHHUUCCKKKKKKK, I am so frustrated at myself...idk what to do, how I can help this, but I need some guidance...thanks in advanced for whatever u can help me out with.
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