Hi, guys. (all of you who hate reading just skip to the bottom
)This is basically my biggest sticking point, which in most cases leads to social anxiety, awkwardness, (shyness i guess too) etc. Forget my lack of game and being a complete AFC, because this is not only girl related. I suck at talking with my friends too. Sure, I can crack a good joke and make people laugh, I can discuss topics...but more often then not, I will run out of things to say and then instantly...in 3 seconds of silence a switch flips inside of me "oh shit, nothing to say again, damndamdamn blahblahblah..." And here comes a freezout because my mind is now totally off topic we are talking about. Also, as you may notice, this means that I am not the one that can lead or steer conversation in any way unless super interested about it.
Here is another great example of how awful I am at conversing. It has to do with storytelling. Couple of girls and guys sitting at the table. All of them my good friends except one girl (very hot and sucessful btw), so they are all talking about crazy people on youtube doing stuff...buddy across me explains in vivid details how some crazy dude messes around with people on youtube etc. My turn. "Eumm, there is this one guy, Steve Green yeah. So he is like real life troll. So he goes out around on streets urmrm...and trolls people u know, fucks around with them. He is totally crazy. You should check it out." Somewhere in there were some more mumblings of how crazy he is...very non-descriptive. So, I just deflated groups energy in like 10 seconds of talking, someone jumps in to save me with more youtube dudes and i pull out my mental shovel so I can dig a grave to bury any value I had left so that hot chick can spit on it for the AFC maggot i am. oO
So, to conclude: I suck at storytelling, animating, leading conversation, keeping conversation alive and digging out cool topics out of my brain. Ridiculously though I can write a pretty good story or a book. Where and how to start discovering my verbal skills?