The following is my conversation with a teacher (who I had sex with a few times) over text messaging:
Her: Sorry just been busy, preoccupied & tired at the end of the day. 8:07 PM
Me: Preoccupied with what? 8:08 PM
Her: School, talking with teacher friends....stuff 8:29 PM
Me: What if one day after everyone leaves you get the best oral in your classroom? 8:39 PM
Her: Lol every guys fantasy 9:06 PM
Me: I wouldn't call it my fantasy, just think it will be fun. What's your fantasy? 9:07 PM
Her: Well idk...not anxious to get caught or fired. Lol 9:19 PM
Me: Of course don't plan on getting fired.. You will not be able to get in after dark. Do you like giving or receiving? 9:24 PM
Her: I can get in whenever now. But there are windows! I prefer receiving but both are fine. So where is this line of questions coming from? 9:39 PM
Me: Some windows better be broken. 9:44 PM
Me: Using windows I like how you think. We are on the same wavelength now. 9:50 PM
Her: Using windows? I'm at a new school with no broken windows & how are we on the same wave length? 10:07 PM
Me: You said there are windows implying if you lose access to get in we can use the windows. I know we may or may not be talking hypothetically here. I thought the context would be implicitly understood. 10:14 PM
Me: What are you wearing? 10:15 PM
Her: My point about windows was that people see in, not that I would break in. Lol & I'm in yoga pants & a t-shirt just chillin at home 10:34 PM
Me: You are such a disappointment for not being game.. You are fired. But we won't have to break in if you have access. I like it with the lights on. Women are so indirect, I'm not buying curtains, you get them. Will those yoga pants tear if you rapidly take them off? 11:19 PM
Her: Sorry I'm such a disappointment!
yoga pants don't tear & seriously are you bored or drinking? Lol you don't usually chat like this. 11:32 PMMe: No drinking.. I don't usually get drunk because it suppresses my energy and my thoughts. I have pride in my energy and my 100% rational thoughts. I'm 25 yrs old and my body produces testosterone. Im glad you like the way I chat. Your clothes are telling me they need to be ripped off.. Can you pay me to do that? 11:50 PM
Her: Trust me, I have no need to pay anyone to undress me! 12:00 AM
Me: Why is that? 12:03 AM
Her: Asking if I would pay for that implies that I need to pay for sex! I have no need to do that nor will I! & honestly that isn't a very respectful or kind thing to imply 12:08 AM
Me: I never said anything about sex... I was asking incentive only for ripping your clothes off... You are the one having such thoughts about paying for sex
12:41 AMHer: Incentive? Are you kidding? Once again, I have no need to give monetary incentive to any man! If I did, he would not be a guy I'd want to show anything to! Do you not see how that is offensive to me? 12:58 AM
Me: I can see how that can be offensive. I did not mean to insult you in anyway and would never do that, you know that, i meant something else. I hate ending any night like this when one of us is upset and that too not deliberately. 1:40 AM
This is my first and only sexualization over text.
I want to know if my flow and attitude was good.
What did I do wrong? How to improve next time? How to start sexualization next time? I think I asked a lot of questions instead of making statements. Quite difficult to communicate without questions.