I got with a girl at something similar to "band camp". During the week of practice i got with her in her dorm room after "needing a shower". we played in the orchestra at a concert in an abby at the end of the band camp week.. I had written in rehearsal a message saying "you smell" or something similar and put it on her music stand. she read it and loled. Then during the actual concert i put a message on her stand saying "you are beautiful, thanks for the amazing week" at the end of the concert i took her arm and kissed her behind a pillar were no one could see us. N E WAY.
after that, i ended up kissing another girl who was IOI me all week, she obviously saw the charisma flowing from my veins due to the spark the first girl created.
The second girl was a HB9 and i had the opportunity to fuck her at a burlesque party. i let her down... i'm not too sure why, it just didn't feel right. Now she has a boyfriend, for around about a year or so. so the HB9 initiated conversation and i destroyed the boyfriend. There are some smilies that didn't show up, n e spaces are smiles, here goes:
Nina
excuse me sir
21:07Me
madam
21:07Nina
but what happened to our picnic?
21:08Me
i couldn't go through with it
21:08Nina
oh no?
21:08Me
yeh i'm afraid so
21:08Nina
i'm upset
21:09Me
its for your own saftey
21:09Nina
oh really?
i see
21:09Me
i'm glad you understand
21:10Nina
i think i do...unless you're a criminal or something
anyway, if you're going to lily's party, it might be safe for me to catch up with you
21:11Me
i'm not promising anything
21:11Nina
in public and all that
21:11Me
well last time
i wanted to fuck you hard
21:11Nina
hm
21:11Me
it's just it would cause too much pain
because i know i'd be addicted
your a beatiful girl, you know that
21:12Nina
oh stop it
21:12Me
no
i wont
21:12Nina
i'm blushing. it's bad.
21:12Me
if i see you, i'm not sure i'd be able to control myself
21:13Nina
don't miss the party for me, jees!
there'll be a lot of other pretty girls
21:14Me
but not one i feel so connected to
21:14Nina
but i have to say, for a guy, you think better than anyone i've ,et
met
*
21:14Me
i think better?
21:14Nina
yes.
you've cared for me already, just by standing back a little
i know a lot of guys that wouldn't have done that
21:16Me
well i know you and miles have something beautiful going on
i'm not one to destroy that
even if you wouldn't let me
21:17Me
i know i'd want to
nina, you are forbidden fruit
21:18Nina
quite
well and you i suppose
what are your future plans, then?
21:18Me
is it alright that i regret not sleeping with you?
21:19Nina
perfectly. in a strange yet perfect way.
but you see if one night was all it was worth then i think we would have gone through with it
21:20Me
i think its much more than that
you'd drive me crazy i know. it'd be like poison
21:21Nina
i don't believe you. are you going away to university?
21:21Me
i am
northumbria uni, so newcastle
21:22Nina
you must be excited
21:22Me
it would of been too hard to break up with you
anyway
21:22Nina
according to you it would have been to hard to be together in the first place
too *
21:23Me
i know, but that is me being logical
21:23Nina
i'm stupid anyway. miles is going into the RAF
haha
i miss you
21:23Me
i think about you now and again
it's nice
what i cannot believe
is that one kiss, sparked all of this off
i felt so connected to you
I've changed a lot since then too
21:24Nina
did you kiss katie?!
21:25Me
i act on impulses and what my gut feelings tell me, and that's why i'm afraid to see you
i did, but she had a boyfriend and we knew nothing would come of it
21:25Nina
that's naughty.
i thought you were good
not letting girls cheat!
21:26Me
i didn't know at the time
she told me over facebook a couple of weeks later
21:26Nina
she is naughty
i simultaneously like and dislike how i sound like a little child sometimes
21:28Me
it's cute
well my head is all over the place now
21:28Nina
why?
but definitely mine too
it's friday the 13th tomorrow
21:29Me
i'm at work tomorrow too.
eesh
21:29Nina
careful
can you drive?
21:30Me
yeh been driving nearly a year
21:31Nina
i'm not sure why i asked you.
my parents don't let me go in a car with anyone young unless they know them and they've been driving 6 months
oh things make me so CROSS sometimes
like
when you know someone is annoyed
so you are extra nice
and then they are still mean
i'm in a fragile mood
change the subject. have you got any jokes?
21:34Me
i'm going to hold you in my arms
i will at lilys
i wont ever do anything with you you dont want to
21:35Nina
bet you 50p you won't dare
21:35Me
you are asking for fucking trouble
21:36Nina
:D:D:D21:36Me
do you realize how passionate i am feeling towards you right now
your something i must have, yet cannot
21:36Nina
no, but i know how much 50p means to you
can i just ask, how will we ever get CLOSURE?
21:37Me
by seeing each other
i don't mean on a sexual level
but passionately
we will chat and hold each other
and understand each others situations.
21:39Nina
and get married and that kind of stuff
21:39Me
i knew you had thought about that
21:39Nina
hahahahahahahaha
21:39Me
i know you want to kidnap me
and make me fuck you
i would give you such an orgasm
21:40Nina
you know what i LOVE. the fact that you put a little innocent smile after that DIRTY comment
excuse me sir but i'm just going to brush my teeth
i'll be back soon i hope
21:40Me
listen
one second
21:41Nina
go on
21:41Me
I've got to go. I will see you at lily's party. We will have some time to ourselves and talk, properly
21:41Nina
good
remember our bet
21:41Me
i am going to university in september and it'l be great to have closure and say goodbye
21:42Nina
miles knows we kissed so erm be subtle
21:42Me
Yeh, ok. I bet you 50p you'll want to kiss me
see you soon xxx
21:42Nina
i lose
byeXX
and stfu I was tired when I read it. 
