Hey buddy,
I can't explain why you feel anxious because I'm not you and I don't know how the girls treat you or what you went through. That stuff doesn't really matter anyway because I don't need that to tell you this.
I want you to run this through your head and really think about the words that I'm going to say. I want you to pretend that this is you thinking to yourself and use this thought process as a new lens to look at your problem, are you with me? Here goes:
I am me meaning I know myself better than anyone can. I am entitled to my own happiness and excellent fucking great state of mind because this is my life, I want to be happy, no one has the right to tell me otherwise because it's not theirs, this is mine. Knowing all of this, I am a man who is confident enough to know that the negative bullshit that others think of me or judge me is not true because I know that is not who I am. I have a choice to not give a fuck about what others think about me. It is okay to not give a fuck about how others see me. How I see myself is how others will see me. I present and project myself to others as how I see myself. I know I am a guy who's improving and slowly evolving to be the best man that I can be. I have potential to be great and with this greatness I know I respect myself and others will respect me as well. So with all of these thoughts added up, the question is why do I let two girls that I am not even interested in influence my emotions? Who the fuck are they? Why do I even give them the power to affect me? Do they know me as well as I do? No.... Do they know the potential that is in me? No..... Is this their life or is this mine? Mine...... Do they have the right to tell me what to do or how to live my life or how to be me? No.... How I live my life or how I act or whatever it is about me, is my life. I don't let anyone have the power to control my life. This is me, and I am a man, I am a fucking grown up man not a little child who gets told by his mommy. Therefore I will not let these two or three girls or anybody tell me what to do or how to live my life. They don't have the fucking right, maybe when I was young and didn't know any better, but not rightnow. Because this is me, I know I am responsible, I know what is right and what is wrong, I know all of the choices I make and actions I take I am responsible for it all. That means I am also responsible for my own feelings and the decision to let these girls affect me. It IS A CHOICE. Not letting these girls or anybody affect me is simply a fucking choice, and I CHOOSE TO NOT LET THESE GIRLS OR ANYBODY AFFECT ME. I choose to not give a fuck. I choose to give a fuck about what I think myself and how i will live with myself. because ultimately in the end, I'm the one who will live with myself for the rest of my life, not her, not my mom, my dad, my friends, not anyone else but myself.
After you read this thought process that I took the time to design for you, I want you to read this over and over again until you realize they shouldn't matter and you shouldn't give a fuck. Just be you, have fun, and live. Instead of worrying about the things you don't want, you should redirect your attention on something that you really want and focus on that, not on them, who gives a shit about them, you should give a shit about HER. Does that helps? I know it does,
Take care and good luck.- Nelson
