Hi people
So I have a gf now(we're both 24). She was working as a souvenier shop assistant for the last year and decided she wants to go study again for a 18months.
Right now I'm jobless until I get my holidays and then I'll be looking for a new job starting September.
I don't know how to call it (ego? envy?) but I don't want her to study. I would study together but her subject is not for me. She's going to study during day time and working part-time. Now my anger is that we'll probably be seeing less of each other and I envy of all that college/uni stuff you go through (new friends, parties etc.) except the actual studying part haha. I know she's not going to meet another guy there or dump me because of that. I partly feel like I will be "below" her in knowledge(or whatever you want to call it) and I can't stand my gf being better in any way than me.
I understand, her learning and (hopefully) getting a better job is only for the better for us as a couple, but I just can't stop raging anyway. I admit I'm not perfect and don't want to start studying again (I did finish 5 years of college). Maybe it's because I know of all the fun she'll go through in the college and I envy that alot AND I know we'll be spending less time together.
If anyone could just give me some advice on how to cope with my ego/envy/selfishness. I admit those things about me, but I can't control them. I'm a bit bag of envy..
Much appreciated in advance guys.