hey guys whats goin down? so i just need to exhaust all this shitty tension of one-itis in me and if you guys wanna throw down some input (preferably positive) thatd be sick, i just think i really need some male support right now is all.
my long story short-> almost like a classic movie
see a gal at school whos really shy, i say im gonna try to get in on that no matter what, i befriend her best friend, and my best friend comes into the picture as well. her best friend and my best friend really kick it off and start dating and we are pretty much inevitably gonna date, and she likes me back as i do to her. BUT, then she goes on vacation and loses interest and thats that.
shes the type that was a late bloomer (id rate her an
and i kinda brought her up in the social network cause she didnt know anyone before me (still barely does to this day)so anywho, i know i have one-itis, im not stupid. i truly hate it. being my age (i just graduated) i dont really think i know what love truly is, but for some reason im still just torn up about it. i fell way too hard for her, just because i thought it was garaunteed she was going to be mine. i still see her these days and were good friends and all which i suppose im still happy for, but its the fact that i know at one point she was attracted to me and i could have had it, and then it jus was taken away.
ive tried countless times to get over it, and sometimes it works but it always comes back (its not as bad as it used to be). the whole GOAF10B works somewhat, but only temporarily. i constantly hook up with an HB7 on the weekends, but it doesnt fufill me, and flirting and attracting girls at parties (they tell me straight up) helps a lot but doesnt totally satisfy me. i know that one day ill meet the right one, and theres plenty more girls in the world just waiting to get pounced on, but im just in such a fucking rut right now. i just dont understand why i can attract a bunch of random girls but cant game her. is it cause ive already made the wrong impression on her and thats her view on me from now on? theres plenty more with all this that i just wanna get out of me, but ill save it for later. cheers boys