Im having a weird feeling every time I sarge, or game a girl.
I cant belive that Im that good.
I mean, I have HB9s giving me IOIs 5 minutes after I met her. I feel strange getting this success....sometimes I even blew it because of this.
I remember talking for 15 min with this HB10, IOIs like crazy...I stop counting at ten (the most obvious one was ditching her friend to keep talking to me)
....and then blowing it by saying:HB: (telling me this story about her getting all wet because of the other day storm)
Me :
Poor crazy girl (a neg gone bad, I wasnt smiling, neither said it in a teasing way) The conversations stoped
Me: (trying to keep my cool) Uh...sorry that was really mean.
She giggled...kind of
The conversation goes awkward for a minute, but re-starts for a while...until I had to go class, kiss her goodbye on the cheek...and walked away
I've just insulted her!!!!
That happened to me because I wasnt believing my own success....something within me snaped, and I end up fucking up.
How can I deal with my success? a friend of me told me "Dude, You are not buying your own shit, and your shit is working, so what the fuck is your problem?!!"
I feel like a little kid with a gun....but a little kid warned about the dangers of guns. So Im kind of scared of my own succes. Not a single thing I've read about inner game, has helped me overcome this SA...."Success anxiety"
